So this is just a little random, but I am kind of torn between who I want to be and who I am. Every school has their cliques; jocks, nerds, preps, band geeks, burnouts,etc. I go to a city school and its hard to find that spot. I always walk to each class with one or two different of my friends. Then lunch comes along. When I was going out with my last boyfriend, he was on the hockey team. I'd sit with him and his friends and he was cool with me sitting with my friends when I wanted to. My friend is a prep. I'd sit with her and her AP friends who were also preps. I always feel uncomfortable sitting with them. Then I have my 3 other friends who are a lot like me. I'd sit with them and my prep friends would be like, "Why are you sitting with them? You sit with us." Its hard to choose. The "preps" tried to help me. You know, be a friend, and they don't understand what I'm going through. My "bad boy friend" that I explained to you in the "I know I'm afraid" post. Anyway, he told me that my friends don't know how to deal with my depression. They can't understand because they probably haven't been in my shoes. Its true. I come off as someone who doesn't seem depressed. They find out when its spring or summer when they turn to me and notice that I'm wearing shortsleeve and my arm is in the wrong position. My ex walked on egg shells with me and I absolutley hate that. I'm not glass, I won't break. But, they think break once, break again. So as I am now, I don't want to be labeled. So far its staying that way. Also, as a reminder, tomorrow is the final day of this semester's exams! I'm ready to finish these off with a bang... Hopefully.