I am a all about meating people. But, I'm at this strange point that I'll grab whatever I can take. I'm thinking about taking back some old friends. Right now, I need to build a support system. I have family but there's curtain things that I'm not ready to talk to my parents about. Just normal teen stuff. Last summer, I finally opened my eyes and saw who my friends truley are. This one friend was my "best friend". She manipulated me, embarrased me, took chunks out of my confidence. There's so much more she took out of me, but those right now I can't get into. You know, I let her talk shit about my family. Some daughter, some sister right? I was in a very bad place at that time so I didn't care what was being said. I believe that the mental hospital turned my mind around. After they discharged me, I made a few changes. Switched schools, cut a couple people out of my life, brought in a few others. (we are gonna call the person that embarresed me and what not, Cunt) I'm sorry if that offends anyone, but that's how much I hate her. You don't play more mind games with someone who is on the verge of going over the edge. You just don't. I don't give a shit who you are, you do not do that to anyone. She is a sick person. Anyway, while I was at my stay in the hospital, 80% of my phone calls were drama from home. "Oh my God, your Moms a bitch, your sister is a fat bitch...blah blah blah." I've had enough. When I got home, I talked to Cunt a couple times like everything was ok. I called her, no answer. No return call. No message on MySpace. No E-Mail. Nothing. With all that, I was done. It was time to move on from an almost 3 year friendship that was a lie. I have been better since we've last talked. My sister told me that Cunt was probably the reason I was so suicidel. Ha I really laughed at that one. I have friends. Just not the ones that are there when I need them the most or a great pair of ears. So, you kinda wonder why I have this urgancy of going after anyone to be friends with. Desperate enough to trust my gut and go back to a few friends. Anyone but CUNT!