I'm no longer friends with Susan.  After hearing her talking shit and knowing that Gabby heard her as well, I gave her the silent treatment.  She didn't like that too much.  She tried to put the blame all on me as if I were totally evil.  I can't worry about it too much though because I know I'm not.  I also know that I'm not as crazy as everyone makes me out to be.  I think that people take advantage of the symptoms of my illness and try saying that they didn't say what I heard.  That's alright though.  I don't have to be friends with those who do that shit.  Besides, I don't need alot of friends to make it in this world.  There are people in here that seem to care about me.  I have a friend in New Jersey.  Gabby seems supportive now.  I guess she didn't like that she lost my friendship for those months that I didn't speak to her.  If all Susan can do is talk about other people and support those who hurt me, like the preacher, then I really don't need her.  Let her sister and the other people that talk to her be her friends.  It's not like I left her with no friends.  I'm not the only one she has pushed away though.  This much I do know.  She has a good side to her though.  I'll admit that.  I can't deal with her bad side.  The less she knows about me now, the less she can make me paranoid.  That's that.