Anonymous? Yes. Unidentifiable? No.
I am a black man.
Don’t mistake me for anyone else. I am a black American male. That’s
my space and I claim no other.
I’ve heard your whispers all my life. “Nigger” this and “Nigger” yadda
that. Just letting you know, I did take notice. Sure, I ignored you. Any
bright person would. In truth, you failed my test. Because I’ve always
considered racism a solid litmus test for idiots.
You’ve called me an ape. You’ve spit in my path. You’ve gotten so
agitated at me for friendly cuddling with a white girl in a dance club that
the kindly white bartender felt compelled to whisper a warning to me.
The lynch mob was forming and it might be best if I took my Caucasian
Queen away from redneck central.
I understand why they were jealous. Her face resembled Julie Newmar,
she was built like a man’s woman, and she was all over me with
unmistakable intentions. Okay, we were making out. PDA all the way.
We did leave, partly because I was afraid of a mob of drunk white (probably
armed) envious morons falling under the dangerous umbrella of “group think,”
and partly because this was my first date with “Julie” and now I knew
exactly how it was going to end! …Tomorrow… ;)
So we left, and got to my place and OMG the fucking.
I’m serious.
That girl told me “I love to suck dick.” She was not joking. She sucked
me to climax 4 times and then I had to fuck her hard and I came a 5th time,
all in one hour and 15 minutes.
This was no casual acquaintance. We had been working together for
several weeks. My GF and I were separated, everyone knew it, and Julie
was so friendly that I knew she’d go out for a drink with me. Luckily she
liked me a lot as well.
For that, I could have been killed. For that, many of us have been killed.
All for that.
Racism is not just a blind attitude toward color or class. It’s visceral,
it’s aesthetic. It’s nausea looking at that sick skin, that nose, that walk,
and smelling that smell of them, the other, and hearing their grating
voices, their lingo, their slang and slurs. It’s the danger you feel when
you suddenly realize that there are more of them here than you.
Damn that girl loved to suck dick. No shit.
- the Eagle is still Underground
- the wings still spread full span



