Tonight I cried....one of those deep, from the belly cries that we all need to do every once in awhile.....
Tonight I cried... for the little girl who lost her daddy at age 50, when her first born, his name sake, was only 2 months old.
Tonight I cried...for the woman who lost both of her in laws to cancer.
Tonight I cried....for the woman who lost her dear brother in law to aids.
Tonight I cried... for the woman who fought so desperately to save her marriage but had to walk away in the end.
Tonight I cried... for the woman who is trying so hard to be a good mom, but questions everyday...am I doing it right?
Tonight I cried... for the woman who lost her soulmate, a man she loved so dearly, a man who owned her heart and soul... who simply walked away.
Tonight I cried...for the woman who tries so hard to be the best daughter and sister she can... but knows she falls short of the bill.
Tonight I cried ...for the woman who has such wonderful friends but yet she feels she can not live up to their expectations.
Tonight I cried... for the woman who is in love with a married man who says he will leave his wife... she doesn't believe him.
Tonight I cried... for a woman who has fought so hard to escape the walls of depression. The woman who has scratched, kicked, clawed and fought her way out of the deep dark hole that depression offers.
Tonight I cried.... and I let the tears flow....because tonight I needed to cry.
Jenna posted on Aug 26, 2006
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Mamie said on Aug 26, 2006....
sweetie, like a knife in my side, I feel your pain. Tonight I am the psychic one.
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Jenna said on Aug 26, 2006....
You are always there aren't you... feel like gardening??? :)
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Mamie said on Aug 26, 2006....
hey there, just wanted u to know, that I know about depression and all it has to offer. It lives behind a door that I have seen. The sign on the door is called "despair". Do not choose the door. It goes to nowhere. You can work thru this and I am glad that you have friends at SC who will weigh in on this.
You have staked a claim on your happiness now. Stay with it. You deserve it and you will find the peace that you are searching for...good night friend.
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
Thank you baby girl... sleep tight!
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Zayda said on Aug 27, 2006....
Ahhh...Jenna..those cries are often good for us, and after....
[hugs Jenna]
[hands Jenna a tissue and a nice full-bodied glass of wine]
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
z... thanks is all I can say!
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rosking said on Aug 27, 2006....
It's good to cry and let go.
*big hug*
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
Rosking... my new friend... thank you..and I hug you back!
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silverwhisper said on Aug 27, 2006....
sometimes when life is overwhelming, i find that it's important to smack myself in the head. sometimes, literally.
[hug]
ed
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quidnunc said on Aug 27, 2006....
*approaches Jenna and gives her a hug*
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secretlife said on Aug 27, 2006....
There's nothing like a good cry when the burdens you carry become too heavy. I always find it amazing how other people's 'stuff' becomes our 'stuff' too.
Except after a good cry I always get a damn headache....and my eyes look like crap the next day...oh well.
I betcha you look just beautiful this morning.
Hope you feel better today, Jenna.
[hugs]
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FaithfulDisciple said on Aug 27, 2006....
Crying is good for the soul. it releases all the emotional tension and pent up frustrations that can build up into a state of manic depression.
It's okay to cry, it also enhances your tear ducts capability to naturally shed tears. After crying, don't forget to feel good and smile with the thought, that nothing is permanent and this too shall pass. :)
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
Thanks for your words...I feel much better today....
Sw....head duely smacked.
Q...very sweet...thank you!
SL...visine and a good cover stick do wonders... ;)
FD...it has already passed...thanks.
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Alyss said on Aug 27, 2006....
Dearest Jenna, {hugs} for you.
My tears are falling today as I finally have a little time to myself so I can cry in privacy.
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
OHHHH Alyss...I am hugging you back. I know you are standing right in the middle of your pain. Let the tears flow!
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sunset said on Aug 27, 2006....
hugs to you jenna! hope you're better now...
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
Thank you...I am much better today. Last night, I just had a moment.
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missfickle said on Aug 27, 2006....
Oh Jenna, Kiss Kiss. let it go baby, today you cry, tommorow you can smile, a new day a new dawn a new life. God bless
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JollyBeans said on Aug 27, 2006....
I can see that you are a woman of compassion... feeling the pain of the suffering... Yes, it's good to cry.... have a good to cry and let go and all will be well tomorrow...
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JadeLondon said on Aug 27, 2006....
But that is the beauty of those long deep cries. They are cleansing.
I often find a strange numbness pervades my soul. I able to distace myself from the situation enough to logically deal with it, and thus heal.
Think of it as purging emotion, so you can make room for logic.
My God, I think I JUST had epiphany.
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
mf, jolly and Jade...thanks..Today iIam good to go!
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mobil said on Aug 27, 2006....
Jenna, what you said touched me deeply, you've had e
some real bumps in your road. It's ironic that I came back
to read your work tonight. Who said things don't
happen for a reason?
This crying you speak about, this afternoon I wrote
about depression and the way an ancient cluture deal
with depression.
I don't know if it will help you, it helped me years ago
when I suffered from severe depression.
All the best to you, I have an understanding of this.
Please look over this that I explained, maybe are paths
crossed for a reason?
mobil
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
Mobil...our paths did cross for a reason... and maybe for one we don't even know yet. I loved your post and I do something somewhat similar... I go to the beach every year for a weekend by myself. It is not a mountain top...but I go, talk to God. Try to find peace. Thank you for thinking of me. Love to you!
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
Scalywag....thanks. and I hug you back...I am really great today...but need to sleep now. I am facing 24 first graders in the morning for their first day of school. AHHHH! :)
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elleb84 said on Aug 27, 2006....
stop crying, and start being greatful for all the wonderful things you do have in your life!
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
elleb84... I am so grateful for all of my blessings...and I am blessed. But every once in awhile I cry.
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Zayda said on Aug 27, 2006....
every once in awhile we all cry, no matter how great our lives are. there is absolutely nothing wrong with crying, so let's not invalidate the need to cry. (which i don't think you are, jenna.)
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Jenna said on Aug 27, 2006....
I hear you Zayda... there is something so special about a good, cleansing cry. I am all for crying. And thanks for the glass of wine last night. I thoroughly enjoyed it. :)...Love you sweetie...I have to turn this computer off and go to bed!!!!!
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whisper said on Aug 27, 2006....
once in a while i cry to let it all out of me......... when its only me and my God............. and i talk to God about my sufferings , my mistakes, for what he took from me and what he gave me, for my sadness and happiness, for my successes and failures......... i just cry and talk complaining as well as praising....... that makes me feel much better.
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angelove said on Aug 28, 2006....
I cried too, too many a time, too many a night, too many a day, too many a hour, too many a minute, for a human so far from his dream for who he want to be, for a life any human dream of, for the dream all human have their vision on, for the vision we human act on, for the act I as a human couldn't fulfil. We cried in different ways, i chose to cry where nobody know i'm crying,
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CreativeWoman said on Aug 28, 2006....
Jenna,
Hugs, my dear. You are a good soul.
CW
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Jenna said on Aug 29, 2006....
whisper...God is always with me when I cry...alone or with others. I am glad to hear you cry too.
Al...We all do cry in different ways... it sounds as though you are hurting...to you I say , I wish you peace... a good cry always helps to bring peace.
CW. I know you know....I know you know!! Love you!
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