i really need to laugh today. sometimes it slays me how funny people can be in their comments. so leave me a funny comment would ya?
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to catch you up...
i had a monster migraine headache this weekend (all better now)
my oldest son turns 13 today so i am officially the mother of a teenager and he was acting all teenager this morning too (i feel my migraine coming back when i think about that)
his dad had a party for him with his side of the family this weekend and bought him an electric razor and helped him shave for the first time. he didn't take pictures (does he not know that fathers have died for far less?????)
i slept from like 9 or 10 sat eve till 1 pm sunday afternoon and still broke down in the car on my way to work this morning because i'm so tired. i think, no, i KNOW, something is wrong with me. i just don't know what. for at least 12 or so years now i've suffered through life with complete and utter exhaustion. not just "im tired" but EXHAUSTION. every single day. not a day goes by that i'm not exhausted. docs dont' know why. i have sleep apnea but i'm treated for it and they say i shouldn't be tired anymore. it's sometimes debilitating. like i'll go and go for a couple months and then my body chooses a day that it's just going to shut down. a day where i try and get out of bed and my body laughs and sneers at me and it just doesn't happen. and then i rest a few days and i can go for a couple more months (still being exhausted though). it's just a perpetual cycle.
why do i bring this up? well, i'm nearing a collapse. i can feel it. life doesn't stop just so i can rest. the kids still need fed, the dogs still need let out, kids need taken to school, and paycheck still needs earned. i cried this morning because i'm so sick of this cycle. my mother is so worried about me and shows it like this "FRAGGLES! YOU HAVE TO QUIT MESSING AROUND WITH YOUR HEALTH AND GET TO THE DOCTOR!!" duh. like i haven't tried that before. the docs are also always quick to point out that i'm a single mom and chasing after two boys is tiring. duh. but not like this.
and an extra bad part to this whole cycle? i'm diabetic so when i get run down i tend to pick up virus' much easier.
seeing that you guys don't know me i don't expect you to understand. but trav knows me and he's witnessed the cycle of constant exhaustion, utter collapse, then i get sick, rest a few days and then it's back to constant exhaustion (i really wish he would pipe up for me on this one just so you guys don't think i'm just being whiny or that it's all in my head)
so...whoooo....sorry bout that unexpected rant...i started this just to ask for some funny comments to make me smile today.
