Okay so today I want to talk about the things we go through in life, the good the bad and the perverse!! Here is the thing, I have heard all my life from one person or another that things that happen to us are "God's Will" and I believe that this is basically true. But then I have had others tell me that the really horrible things that have happened in my life, like being abused as a child (sexually and physically), going through a bad marriage and divorce and being cut off from my family were the work of the devil... I don't see how these can be considered "not of God's hand" when he allowed them..
I have stumped many religious zealots with this question, "If God wasn't "okay" with what was happening, why didn't he stop it? As he is all knowing and all powerful, then he has the ability to stop any negative action that he wants to, that being the case why would he not stop the abuse of a child??? No one has been able to answer this question.. The reason for that, I believe, is that even the most horrible and hateful parts of our lives is meant for our own growth and sanctioned by God.. Remember the story of Job from the Bible?? In that story God and the Devil basically played a game with Job's life, causing him to suffer horribly just to see what he would do.. I don't believe in the "devil" but I do believe in the basic concept of this story, I believe that we go through things just to see if we will be strong enough to face them or if we will turn and run from them.. If we face them then we are rewarded, we grow spiritually as well as emotionally because we "faced the unfaceable". And if we refuse to face them and deal with them, that has concequences, mental imbalances and a life that is far from productive, most people who face things like this but dont deal with them directly end up being alcoholics, drug addicts, mentally defective or even future abusers.
I have to believe that there is a reason for God to allow such horrible things to happen in our lives.. There has to be some growth from it, it has to be a part of our overall reason for being.. Yes I believe that each of us has a purpose in this life and that we will either reach it and move to another level of spiritual development or we will fail have be forced to repeat the processes again.
To believe that God allowed me to be abused in the ways that I was, and believe me I prayed every day of my life for an end to the pain and humiliation that I faced, and that he didn't stop it just because he didnt feel like it or because he didnt start it, would make me hate God in a way that I can't even describe.. Maybe believing that it is a part of a bigger plan is just one of my coping mechanisms but it is the only way that I can be "okay" with God's lack of influence on that time in my life.
Believe me I know better than most what horrors there are in this world.. I am not saying that they are any less horrible because they are part of God's plan but I am saying that there has to be more to them than just a way to destroy and hurt people.
Thats all for now, have a great day and I hope to hear from you all soon... Until then, Love and Light...
