I have spent the last hour cruising dating site checking my profiles and wondering if this is my fate from now untill.... Friday nights alone... SUCK. I hope this lonely feeling passes soon. It makes me feel I am not living my life fully. I don't feel I will ever be confortable in going to bars, and now that I am over 40 that seems a little pathic. I can hear the young dudes now Cougar on the prowl watch out boys.  I have even invited a neighbor over for dinner in hopes that he could see that I like him, but alas no. Just thanked me for a great dinner and went home. SIGH... Another Friday and all I have to do is surf the net, and watch TV that just sounds so sad.