Okay so I have talked alot about what I disagree with when it comes to religion, now I'm going to talk about my greatest blessing.. I said I would tell you more about myself as we went along and that is what this post is about.. As I said before, I do believe in a higher power and I do believe that there is a purpose to this crazy life that we lead. My life has been far from easy, I come from a very abusive background and I continued to be in an abusive situation with my first husband, when I finally opened my eyes to what I was doing to myself by being with him, my entire world changed.. I was a single mom for two years and believe me it was tough..All of that changed the day that I met the man I am married to now, he and our children are my greatest blessing.
First off let me say that my husband is my best friend and my greatest supporter, We met and came together in a way that most ppl would have said could never last yet here we are still together after 7 years and more in love than we were in the beginning. We have faced some of the worst times in our lives together. As I said in the first blog we have 5 kids, 1 is from my first marraige, he has adopted her, the other 4 are ours, we thought we were going to lose our first boy, they did an emergency c- section due to his heart rate dropping and due to a few other complications it was pretty touch and go for a few days with him. I had problems from the c-section which put me back into the hospital with my body shutting down from infection, then after all this was said and done we found out that I had cervical cancer and we had to start dealing with that and what it meant to us and to our family.. We thought we would have no more kids after our son (he was our 3rd child). We were so excited when I went into the Dr.'s office to schedule a surgery for the cancer to find out that I was pregnant again.. I shouldnt have been able to get pregnant at that point, but I was and we were very thankful, we had another son. After he was born we really thought we were done having kids.. Both of us thought that four was enough! However, there was a higher power at work for us, I came up pregnant again, while taking birth control and still dealing with the cervical cancer...Needless to say we were both kinda freaking out about this baby, we are only in our late 20's and five kids are a bit overwhelming! :P We had our third daughter though and we couldn't have been happier or loved any of them any more than we do. As you all know, life is always chaos, these are only a few of the things we have faced together, and we have only grown stronger.. Now let me tell you about my husband....
I am married to the most wonderful man, he is so supportive and giving that it still amazes me at times.. My husband took my oldest daughter in and loved her as his own from day one.. He has always given her as much love and support as any father would give his daughter, there has never been a difference made between her and our other kids, that in and of itself is saying alot.. But he has been so much more than that, he has supported me in everything I have done, and is still supporting me, he is here at home with me and our kids so that I can go to college and get my degree, while I'm in here "hitting the books" he is taking care of our children, none of them go to daycare as we dont trust them.. He cooks and cleans and does all of the everday things in our home so that I can follow my dreams, dreams that I thought I would never see come true.. He has been a major part of healing my earlier abuse, and believe me, if there is a way to be abused I have seen and experienced it... mental, physical, emotional and sexual... He has helped me get passed all of it and grow from it..
I spent two years praying for someone like him to come into my life but I never imagined he would be so wonderful.. He was the answer to hundreds of prayers, and not all of them were for a mate.. He answered prayers I said about myself and my past, my fears and insecurities and my hopes and dreams.. In one man, God answered every prayer I had..
He spends everyday making sure that I know how loved I am and how proud of me he is.. I've never known that kind of love before, he spends everyday looking for new ways to tell me and show me how much I mean to him and I spend everyday thanking God that I have him.. He is a wonderful man and an outstanding father.. He give our family everything he has and yet he never seems to run out of patience..
These are only a few of the reasons he and our children are my greatest blessing. When I thought I had hit bottom in my life, God sent me my husband and my life has been wonderful every day since then.. No, it hasnt always been easy and there have been plenty of problems along the way but I have had a wonderful, loving, supportive and giving man beside me to help me through and I could never have asked for more than what I have with him. He is my strength and my center, without him life would lose meaning.. This post is for him, and its for those of you who feel the need to give up, dont, its out there for you too and when the time is right God will make it happen... Back to my normal postings later! :) Until then Love and Light
