This is my first blog, so here it goes!

About a year ago I met a wonderful girl. She also uses this blog, so I'd rather not name her. She changed my life completely. I went from wondering what a relationship should be like and only having sex cause everyone does to loving someone with my whole heart. We are engaged to be wed early 2010.

The problem is this though. I have made mistakes in my life. I have learned from them and know what to do and what not. Other guys also made some mistakes. Combining the two means I have used girls and guys have used her.

Now I have to make her understand that mistakes are just that. Mistakes. She is really struggling getting over my ex. My ex was a very cheap and nasty girl and I honestly don't even know why I dated her. I struggle to explain this to my love. I want her to know she is the one.

She is having a real battle with sex. She feels that sex is cheap and that I might be using her like other guys. I need her to understand that I will never hurt her. I need her to give her heart and body both to me. At this stage I just get a little of both. Not full out throughout.

How do I help her believe and understand that she is now in a relationship where her partner will give his life for her. I will do anything for her. How do I make her understand that I am nothing if I can not love her. I need her to know. She doesn't understand it when I tell her. I love her for who she is. I want her to give herself to me as I gave myself to her.

If you have even a word to say please do. Help me out here.