For some time now I've been bursting to tell my tales from the sex trade, but didn't know how to post anonymously, duh. My "job" began, not surprisingly, out of desperation--after burning out in the corporate realm, I wanted to support myself doing something I was good at, something I liked. After taking stock though, turned out I was only good at crafts, art and sex...and was dubious that any of those could pay my bills. Besides, I was already 42 years old and on a spiritual path, a regular meditator and a vegetarian...not the stuff of sex workers, I thought. But after a chance session with a sensual massage practitioner, I saw a new avenue opening up...to make good money making men feel happy, something I was already very good at.

I started the very next day--placed my ad on Craigslist and began my new job as a sensual massage girl. Thankfully I had had some massage experience, and was already fairly competent. Plus I was willing to do it topless, and am lucky to have firm nicely shaped breasts...not having kids no doubt helps! I intended to find hot clients so that I wouldn't have to act while wroking on them, but soon found that asking men to describe themselves was useless. I saw a survey in which men were asked whether or not they considered themselves handsome--an overwhelming number, like 90+ percent, said yes. That's really weird, because (I only see) about 25% of the men on the street are handsome, at most. Of course that's a silly subjective judgment, but seems true for me. Women asked the same question respond yes at only about 20%, sadly.

My first client arrived at my door with a cane...he was well over 400 pounds, though he said in his email he was fit and handsome. I didn't have the stones to turn him away, so went through with the massage...almost threw up at several points, I was freaked out but smiled my way through it. Afterward I asked him not to return, it was a sticky moment but I knew I couldn't do it again. The next day I posted an ad but required photos from potential clients--wasn't sure if that would fly, but most were willing to submit theirs, thankfully.

Two years later, I'm still at it...with a team of cool regular clients. I post ads once or twice a month to find new ones, and have been lucky enough to attract quality men, most fit and professional. Sometimes I want them as boyfriends, there are a few super athletic, sexy and single guys who I would love to spend more time with. But then I remember what I do for a living, and think better of it. Who wants a girlfriend who shares her body with other men? Well some do, but most, not so much.

I'm in school now to learn to become a dog trainer, so am hoping to get out of sex work this year, if all goes well. But in the interim, I have so much to tell--about guys from other countries, guys with amazing careers like surgeons, psychologists, motocross racers from Italy, animators from Japan. And young guys itching to experience older women...yesterday a 22 year-old told me he knew about the show "Weeds," cause it starred that "old gal" who was, inexplicably, still sexy. I laughed and told him I'm pretty sure I'm older than she is, sheesh. He knew my age but was out of his realm with such an old gal, hehe. But most are smart and respectful, and happy to be pampered and touched.

So I'm off now to walk a dog and practice her obedience skills. I'm excited to write here regularly, and will focus mostly about my clients and our sessions. It's fascinating how many reasons they give for coming to see me--most of the married ones claim that they get no love at home, and the singles ones often are more willing to come play with me than to pick up a drunk girl at a bar. I want to tell their stories, some are heartbreaking, some instructive...especially for women who are married/living with their man but are no longer affectionate or sexual. These guys find me easily and are happy to lay down some cash to spend time with someone who's dedicated to their pleasure. Looking forward to many hot and funny posts, thanks for reading!