• moonriver said on Jan 25, 2009....

  hi alyss.
  i wrote a series about my life (in summary) in the past years, with the vernal equinox as a sort of landmark.
  here's what i wrote about my life five years ago (around march 2004), a rather vague summary, but that in itself reflected my state of mind back then:
  
  
  It's around March of 2004. The vernal equinox* is at hand -- the start of spring in the northern parts of the globe, and traditionally feted as a great occasion to mark the end of winter and to celebrate the regrowth of life.
  
  How was I faring during this time?
  
  Simple. I am plodding along like in 2003, but increasingly dissatisfied with how my work is turning out. No. change that into: My work is increasingly becoming a nightmare to me. Despite my efforts to give it some sense of direction, the institution I founded is consuming itself with self-doubt and self-restriction. My marriage to Sophie is on the verge of collapse. I feel caged in. I want out. Ultimately, I get out. I still can't blog much about the details of this period in my life.
  
  
  
  

• wishyouwerehere said on Jan 25, 2009....

  Alyss - I wish you all the best as you continue travelling this journey - I can definitely identify with the mix of emotions as a marriage reaches its demise.  I doubted I would be strong enough to get through it, and instead, feel as though I am blossoming.  Like you, I wouldn't change anything - the good parts, the bad parts .. it all comes together to bring us to where we are today.  I am so glad you discovered your strength.  Life brings many changes, but that strength is yours to keep, no matter what - Wishy

• Lucytorial said on Jan 25, 2009....

  When we challenge ourselves to live our true lives, for happiness and joy rather than out of responsibility or onus we tend to learn a great deal... nay we shoot off like a rocket learning how to take one step in front of the other.
   
  Being aware of that makes you special indeed Alyss, may your joy be found in this new year.

• EvilTwin said on Jan 26, 2009....

  <Holds you tightly...>  I'm not sure what to say, beloved.  I've the feeling that anything I do say will only come out sounding trite... 
  
  
  I love you.  And I want you to be happy.  Truly.

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