Friends...  I have no friends...

Often I've wondered if it was solely my mistake, but in time I came to realize that it was quite the opposite! Certainly there are things I've done that have driven friends away, but as far as I can tell none was that important, except one, I'm different. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe not.

 Putting aside my hazy origin, I'm different cause I behave as a friend, a true friend. As friends used to be and act, someone to depend on, someone who cares, the whole package. These values are considered naive, or even suspicious nowadays, sad....

  People don't trust each other, always think you are after something when you're just kind with them......  They don't have firm and honest hand grips, they smile with a shadow in their
eyes, they can't believe you just want their company, they think you' re after something, it's
insane! How do they live?! This must be a Very lonely place for them, and this comes from
a person who has all the reasons in the world to feel like this, and doesn't !  I see people as
friends, as potential friends, not as a "village idiot" trusting everyone, but with the hope that
"all will be fine"...  If I didn't feel this way, there would be no reason for me to be here.  And I
think the same goes for everyone else...

  The human race is in pain, but how can one alleviate such a burden if not trusting his/her
fellow man/woman, even the slightest???  One has to believe in one self, but in others too...  I am not perfect nor the best friend I guess, but have always had the best of intentions, always. I see people almost afraid of being honest and "open", almost afraid to trust and truly smile! And it hurts, always does.

  I've grown accustomed to it, but that doesn't mean I accept it too, I never will! The very idea of friendship is a sacred thing for me, in this realm of things, besides, after all, we're all in this together! I don't care what I see around me, don't care if people are being "bombarded with messages like "there is no friendship", "there is no trust", there is no love",  there is no this or  that !  Some values are good, some are useful, and since we inhabit this "game" called "life", lets make it  a good one, for us all......

   From then on, we' ll see




P.S.  Then again, I may just be a weirdo,  lol