Yep.  My life seems to be the pisser.  No one ever takes my feelings seriously.  My mom thinks it's ok to yell at me because I make mistakes.  If I forget something, ok.  It happens to the best of us, right?  Well even though she forgets things sometimes, it's not okay for me to forget things.  It's not like I mean to forget these things.  I have issues.  She knows that.  I am starting to think that these issues stem from the way that I was raised.  Psychology teaches one to love themselves when used correctly, and not for manipulation.  It teaches independance when applicable.  My parents both have different ways of teaching than psychology.  They have different ways of teaching than each other.  I'm getting tired of sitting around and taking all of the yelling because my brain isn't functioning up to perfection's wonderful par.  I know that I don't handle stress very well.  Neither does my mother.  The difference between she and I is that I have a chronic mental illness and she doesn't.  I will chuckle, because I have handled working in a fast food restaurant a hell of alot better than she is right now.  I thought that because I have a hard time with this type of work that there is something wrong with me.  Maybe the voices I hear stem from all of the bullshit that people feed me.  Maybe the religiously negative things that I hear come from the negativity that is in fact within the bible.  I recall reading that you don't go to heaven if you blasphemy the holy spirit.  I suppose because I cursed God on more than one occasion, I'm probably going to hell.  Oh well.  I know that I won't be the only one who goes there if I'm not there already.  I'm getting aggravated with living under my mother's roof.  She treats me like shit when she's having a bad day.  I'm not allowed to do that to her though.  Double standards suck.  We are both adults.  I can't forgive this shit.  Between her, my father's past chokings of me, and other's abusing me, is it no wonder that I would want to be a loner?  I'm not happy with this life.  Everything goes ass backwards from the way that it should.  One is told that life is one way, so that they are blind sided.  Then when they find out it's a whole other ball game they become immobilized with despair and a feeling of betrayal.  I should know.  I feel that way right now.  Ain't that a pisser?