I am a law abiding citizen because I dont want to get in trouble with the police!! (and because, generally I have morals and know right from wrong..hmm usually!!)
Well today, I am waiting for the police to knock on my door. I did something I am not proud of yesterday.
Gotta be honest....it felt fucking amazing though!!! and I still feel high from it...
I also feel dissapointed in myself for letting someone get me angry enough, to kick them full pelt right in the balls... any guesses who??
I swear it came out of nowhere!! he was at my door, using bullying tactics again to get what he wants... and I hurled every bit of anger I had stored up against him over the last ten years, and lashed my foot out aiming right where it hurts...what a shot!!!!! :-)
He bent over, gripped his balls, and there in my driveway, stood the man that has had sooo much power over me for far too long, with a squeeky voice... and about to cry, saying thats assault!! I'm calling the police. and I couldn't help but smile. what an empowering moment, in such a bad way!! I know!! but....
The bully, who has hurt me again and again, the bastard that pinned my arms up against the wall and spat in my face, the fool, who puts his kids last on his list of prioritys, the evil shit that made up all kinds of crap to cover up for his wrong doings.
The racist prick who laughed in amusement as his racist words against my family dug deep in to my soul, the coward, the shallow arrogant ignorant shit that has made my life hell, finally got his comuppance...
I have fantasized about doing it for years,
never thought I would actually do it though! honestly I shocked myself by what I did.
but I dont regret it, I hate watching the door waiting for the police to come, and I hate that I sank to that level... but I love!!!!! that the kick burnt any bridges of bitterness and hatred (from my side at least) and you know, I dont agree with playing god and punishing people, I believe strongly that what goes around comes around all by its self... (so I guess I just earnt myself a load of bad karma)... but that kick was a long time coming!!!! and he did deserve it!!!!!
and I, for once in my life, fought back.
the end.. :-) xx
destinydiva posted on Jan 20, 2009
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Twylarants said on Jan 20, 2009....
Go Des! You should have Bobbitized him! -
PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 20, 2009....
rah, des!
... i sooooooooo know the feeling of doing the right thing (or my gut instinct telling me this is the right thing to do!) and dreading the consequences...BUT still feeling, i did the right thing!!!
[keeps looking at the door, e-mail box, and jumping at every ring of the phone]
...for what is it worth...we both will look good wearing this, don´t you think???
...everything will be alright, des.... everything does in the end...promise
<3
paper ~
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uniquely-ironic said on Jan 20, 2009....
When and if the police do show up, tell them he was verbally harrassing and abusing you. You feared for your safety and did what you could to end the abuse.Yes, kicking him in the balls was bad, but I bet it felt good :) Now don't do it any more. -
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TaintedAtBirth said on Jan 21, 2009....
Because of the past, I would hope they have documented, I could say honestly that I (you) felt in fear of grievous bodily injury and be ok.
Damn I bet that felt good !!
(For you of course!)
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momofkandn said on Jan 24, 2009....
Des you said what goes around comes around and all that right? Well how do you know that the powers that be did not use you to deal out what they felt to be the punishment that he warrented? I do not think any bad karma will be heading your way. (Side note cheering you on) Just remember violance is not the answer.
