Last Friday night i texted my ef BF who I'll refer to as
O. We broke up last september and haven't seen each other
since then. He was the reason why I was depressed and al
those things that comes with a major, heart-wrenching break ups.
I started texting him again recently cos I'm sure I'm
over him, I mean, Im currently maintaining a long-distance
relationship with an old friend, I.
O. We broke up last september and haven't seen each other
since then. He was the reason why I was depressed and al
those things that comes with a major, heart-wrenching break ups.
I started texting him again recently cos I'm sure I'm
over him, I mean, Im currently maintaining a long-distance
relationship with an old friend, I.
I is everything that I've always looked for in a partner,
it's just that the flame is not so intense, but what the
heck, I've been in a relationship with someone intense and
look where it got me? Broken.
it's just that the flame is not so intense, but what the
heck, I've been in a relationship with someone intense and
look where it got me? Broken.
So, anyway, I was very brave to text O again cos I know
that Im over him, that the only reason that I think of him
is because Im used to it and besides we do have a lot of things,
friendship, going on for us.
that Im over him, that the only reason that I think of him
is because Im used to it and besides we do have a lot of things,
friendship, going on for us.
He said he was sick and I encouraged him to see a doctor,
in fact, I offered to go with him to the clinic, and that was
already like 9 in the evening.
in fact, I offered to go with him to the clinic, and that was
already like 9 in the evening.
We stayed at the clinic until past midnight.
He lives very far from where we are, while I was just a couple
of blocks away so, we decided that he can stay overnight.
And since I was pretty sure that it's gonna be ok, we
both agreed that he will have to stay at my place.
He lives very far from where we are, while I was just a couple
of blocks away so, we decided that he can stay overnight.
And since I was pretty sure that it's gonna be ok, we
both agreed that he will have to stay at my place.
We talked about our past, it was pleasant in fact.
We had good times then. I know that he's still with his
GF (let's refer to her as E, they also have a long distance relationship).
We had good times then. I know that he's still with his
GF (let's refer to her as E, they also have a long distance relationship).
I do not have any bitterness when I think og THEM.
Then during the course of our conversation, I noticed that
he was also busy texting on his phone, and I doubted that's E, cos
where she is, it's also past 1am and I don't think she'll
stay that late just texting him, she's not that type.
Then during the course of our conversation, I noticed that
he was also busy texting on his phone, and I doubted that's E, cos
where she is, it's also past 1am and I don't think she'll
stay that late just texting him, she's not that type.
So when he was asleep, I took it upon myself to investigate.
I opened his phone and nosed around.
I found out that he's cheating on his GF E, he
has a Gf now (let's refer to her as K). I was bombed!
The reason he broke up with me was because he wanted to get back with E
and he doesn't want to cheat on her, he said, and cheat on me too.
Well, it seems that he's doing it all over again.
And, I also found out he calls me Asshole in his phonebook.
That is so sweet (sicko)
I opened his phone and nosed around.
I found out that he's cheating on his GF E, he
has a Gf now (let's refer to her as K). I was bombed!
The reason he broke up with me was because he wanted to get back with E
and he doesn't want to cheat on her, he said, and cheat on me too.
Well, it seems that he's doing it all over again.
And, I also found out he calls me Asshole in his phonebook.
That is so sweet (sicko)
But here's the sicker thing.
When he woke up in the morning, we had sex ( I call
it sex, not making love, cos I know there was no love there,
not from him anyway)
Ugh! I know I shouldn't have, it was wrong.
But it felt right. Im am sick!
I didn't want it to get any further but I just was not able to
resist him. It felt good to touch him, to hold him,
to wrap myself around him.
I can kick myself. I did afterwards.
What is wrong with me?
When he woke up in the morning, we had sex ( I call
it sex, not making love, cos I know there was no love there,
not from him anyway)
Ugh! I know I shouldn't have, it was wrong.
But it felt right. Im am sick!
I didn't want it to get any further but I just was not able to
resist him. It felt good to touch him, to hold him,
to wrap myself around him.
I can kick myself. I did afterwards.
What is wrong with me?
I know it was unfair for I, who was believing in me.
I wanted to be very right for I. I want to be very faithful to him.
I failed.
What the hell am I suppose to do now?
I wanted to be very right for I. I want to be very faithful to him.
I failed.
What the hell am I suppose to do now?
