So... I thought maybe I would start doing the blog thing to
get my thoughts out when I need to. I'm really hoping this is in
actuality anonymous, as I don't really need all the world to know what I am
really like; I have few enough friends as it is.
Anyway, I joined Facebook recently. I figured I would give that a whirl,
seeing as a lot of old myspacers have moved on the the facebook. But unfortunately,
once again, I start to feel lonely and inadequate when looking at the profiles
of others. It seems everyone has tons of friends and has so much going
for them.
Is something wrong with me? I guess as I look at the lives of others I
see that I have so little. I'm not talking about material things. I
have everything I need as far as that goes. Well, we could all have more
if we look at it that way. But, really I'm talking about the little
things. I'm very fortunate to have a boyfriend that loves me, and for
that, I am truly thankful. I guess sometimes I cannot help feeling bad
about not having much of a social or family life.
I cannot really make up for the family thing, as we do not chose what we are born into, however, what I really feel bad about is my lack of close friendships. It seems that I have missed out on the important friendship making times in my life. Now, it seems that everyone already has their friends and people are not really looking to make any new friends. Perhaps I am looking in the wrong places, so please feel free to give me any tips on where to meet people.
When I see all these profiles of people out with their friends having good times, I feel like I am missing out. I really would love to have people with which to out and talk.
Ugh… feel so guilty complaining. I guess there are much worse things that could be happening, but tonight, as my boyfriend is out with guy friends and I am stuck home watching TV (well dvd episodes of “As Time Goes by” – I’m a bit of a Brit Com junky ), I feel bad that I don’t have any true friends of my own.
Okay, so that’s my first shot at getting my thoughts out via the blog. I guess I shall see what happens.
