just after christmas i went into hospital as you all know mainly due to a breakdown, see my mother had managed to yet again drive me into the ground using my dad and granma as weapons to get to me , telling me to kneel at my dad's grave side and ask his forgivness b/c i hadnt put my granma's broken cross so at least grandad would see that her grave was being tended too, wen its not b/c she doesnt go anywhere near it or my dad's. only i go and tend to their graves
i saw my grandad for the 1st time 3wks ago and she even managed to start a argument which ended in tears and i kicked her out my house, my grandad is 90yrs he bout me up and he knew and could hear what she was saying, my b/day came and went new year came and went with not 1 word from her not even now im home, so thats why iv decieded to walk away from her altogerther, i was in hospital no calls or visits nothing she hasnt been round or called or txt me nothing since 25th dec iv not heard a word from her at all,
all the family got new year wishes from her except me , does she expect me to do it 1st am i in the wrong all i can say is i cant keep crying going over and over being used and blackmailed by dad's last wishes, or by being used to be in the will, what crap, iv never had money so i know what its like to be without it,
my son she got him nothing for his b/day or christmas but did my dauta and grand,dauta, makes me wonder if she is actually knows what she is doing
so while i was in hospital having tubes wires drips morphine antibiotics, thats when the infection set in and i must say bein sic is vile but havin cyclazine via iv line is great blew my head off, oh well................
so it brings me to now im still not 100% feel like crap but have decieded to walk away and live my life how i shud do smile b/c i deservere to i will be fine living my life without her, oh it will hurt but it will get better in time i cant take anymore abuse iv 42yrs to come out on my therapy sessions and medication
i know 2009 i will live my life the way i want to ...................................
