It seems as though my neighbors are taking turns disturbing the peace in my existence.  I have to deflect that.  I'm not used to it.  I don't think anyone could ever get used to it, no matter how long it goes on.  Since none of these people truly know me, they are making rather large mistakes.  I'm not going around hurting them.  I'm rising above their bullshit despite how they want me to break.  I still think that Gabby has something to do with this.  Some of these neighbors weren't bothering me until I broke off the friendship with her.  Either she is psychically sending off the negativity, or she and her family are talking with these people around me.  Somehow she's involved.  I'm not doing anything to harm anyone by living my life or standing up for myself when I do.  I stood up against Gabby and threatened her with the cops if she started anymore shit with me like she did before I tried to be nice to her.  Now other neighbors are threatening me with the cops when I'm just sitting there smoking cigarettes?  Come on.  How the fuck is anyone supposed to carry self respect and stability when there is an uprising against it?  I have to find a way to continue being better than them, it seems.  I don't want to end up throwing darkness everyone's way.  I know that I can.  I know that it's dangerous not only for them, but for me as well.  I think that they all crave my attention, yet go after it negatively.  I don't want to talk to a bunch of people anyway.  Blogging and talking to the few friends that I have is all that I need, family included.  If these neighbors continue to harass me there has to be something that I can do to show them how dumb they look.  I don't need their shit.  I am sick and tired of people trying to upset me.  I don't go around purposely trying to rile everyone else up, so what the fuck is this all about?  I know that I'm not a bad person.  I also know that I don't deserve this shit.  I guess that I have to take the advice of that one precious lady that I used to talk to in Newark.  She told me to not pay attention to what goes on outside and around me.  The only thing is that if I do that, I risk a physical attack on my person more so if I'm walking down the street or something.  These people that bother me are just plain evil.