I Enjoyed:
- Hanging out with friends and playing games.
- Watching my cats interact with the dog when she came inside yesterday.
- Hearing the kudos for the insert project I worked on at work.
- Eating well yesterday without actually eating a lot.
- Getting caught up with bills, checkbook, and lists.
Ok, now that that is done ... on with the beef. So while hanging out with friends last night was good, I did get sort of pissed off when they first arrived. The one friend walked in the door just as my dad and I were preparing to mend his recliner (the seam had broken at the front of the cushion he sits on and he wanted to sew the cord back in and fix it). I suddenly got completely bypassed and my dad asks my friend if she knows how to sew ... she does. So he asks her for help instead. He was acting all high and mighty to me before she walked in like he knew exactly what he was doing and I needed to just sit out of the way and wait for him to request my help. I assumed he did know what he was intending to do, as he has already sewn one spot on that cushion. I mean, he knows I sew, I'm the one that always gets asked to fix random clothing items when a small tear shows up. She walks in though, I get bypassed, and thusly pissed.
If it wasn't a habit of everybody around here I wouldn't mind ... but it was yet another reminder, and an up for her, that I apparently don't quite add up. My FIL is horrible about it at the farm ... as soon as she started hanging out with us I no longer got asked to do things or volunteered for shit, she did. I'm chopped liver. Other friends have done this. My own dad now has done it. My husband constantly pisses me off because, ok, this girl weighs 105 lbs soaking wet ... she knows cars ... she knows farming. I'm nowhere near 105 lbs, I know less about cars than she does (but at least I know my fair share), and while I do know some farming, I didn't necessarily grow up right on a farm being involved day in and day out, so she has me there too. So he'll strike up a conversation with her that could last anywhere from twenty minutes to an hour and I'm sitting there the whole time going 'Great, if I open my mouth one of them will think I'm a moron ... and yet I'm being left out by my own husband and friend.' It makes me feel inadequate and hurts my feelings, and when I finally have had enough and say anything ... and I'm not exagerating, I don't flip my lid, I just calmly tell my husband about it ... he wants to just wave his hand as if it means nothing. It doesn't help that this particular friend is an attention whore ... she HAS to be the center of attention and if she's not, she pouts and acts like a bitch until everybody's doting over her. Lately I haven't even been asking her what's wrong because I'm getting sick of it ... I just don't care anymore. For all of you other skinny gals out there who hate getting a bad rap for stupidity of others ... this girl is your enemy ... she's a scrawny, attention whore, know it all, snob who always gets all the attention and usually from guys ... making girls like me feel inadequate and pissed off at skinny bitches like her. So, you see I realize you're not ALL this way ... but she certainly adds to the stereotype.
Moving on ... so I went to my WW meeting this morning ... lost another 2 lbs ... making my total weight loss with WW 26.4 lbs. Making my TOTAL weight loss 32.4lbs. I was so excited! I actually got a little keychain thing for losing my first 25lbs. I feel so much better too, thinking back on it. I was so surprised the other day when I was out playing with my horse because I actually had the energy to do it, whereas before, I wouldn't have. It's just so exhilerating knowing I'm feeing better, getting more energy, losing weight, looking better, and getting healthier. I feel I've come a long way. I'm finding more ways to exercise, to MOVE. I now park even further away than normal (unless I'm in a hurry or it's bad weather out), I choose to stand instead of sit so that there may be more chance of walking around, I find ways to make things more physically challenging for me. I'm making LOTS smarter decisions about my food and eating habits. I'm choosing healthier things. I'm being more creative about it. I'm learning my shortcuts that enable me to get what I want without over doing it. For example, since a certain somebody brought up buying pizzas I've been craving them ... so today after my WW meeting I ran over to the grocery store and bought a Smart Ones pizza. It'll be 8 points, it's a personal pizza, and it's pepperoni! Guilt free pizza ... who knew such a thing existed!
Also, at the meeting another woman mentioned something she recently tried and now loves. She went out and bought some multigrain, low fat english muffins. Then she took some yogurt (whatever flavor you want, just keep in mind what you're eating it with) and spread it over the english muffin. She used strawberry and said that it tasted just like a strawberry danish and for one english muffin and the yogurt (assuming it's a single serve, fat free cup and you'll eat what you don't spread on it) it's only 3 points! So filling too! I went out and got the muffins and then I got berries and cream yogurt to spread on top. It was delicious. The berries and cream yogurt reminded me of the kind of jam you get when you have breakfast out at a restaurant. It was very filling and I felt like I'd had some special, extravagant meal. I really enjoyed it.
Now I've got the whole rest of my day to do whatever I want. I don't have to worry about writing any bills out or balancing the checkbook. I need to put a couple of bills out in the mailbox soon, before the mail comes. I could perhaps do a little cleaning, and I've got the dishes prepped and ready to poor. The dishes are about the only probable thing that I need to do. I suppose I also need to call my friend with the cleaning business so I can discuss W-2s with her and also see if we can set up some time to get together. Nothing major going on today at least.
Also, my thumb hurts. My husband lost his balance last night and fell on me and jammed my thumb. It hurt right when he did it, but after a while it wasn't hurting anymore so I didn't think anything of it. It's surely been sore since I woke up this morning though. I can still bend it and everything though, so I know it's not broken or anything. He probably just jammed it. No biggie, but it's somewhat uncomfortable.
Also, I have a bunch more pictures to share ... I'll do another post with them seperately as soon as I get them all loaded up. Again, animal pitures, but I just couldn't resist these. I think you'll enjoy them.
