13.01.09
Tuesday
23.17

... please, I only ask for peace...

... please, let me have my happiness ...

12.01.09

taken 12.01.09
____________________________________________________________________

Tomorrow, I need to make an important call.  My apologies if I cannot share the details.  But my happiness depends on this call.

I have a blog I drafted this afternoon (this and that prevented me from posting it), I will post it tomorrow morning.  How things could change in matters of hours...

Please send positive thoughts my way, I really need lots of emotional strength...

Thank you for taking time to read.

It is 25 minutes past midnight now... I will turn my worrying mind off and just think positive thoughts until I fall asleep.




del.icio.us Digg reddit StumbleUpon

Comments

  • uniquely-ironic said on Jan 13, 2009....
    you got it!!
  • fearing said on Jan 13, 2009....
    How about a prayer instead? 
    Rest easy.  Let us know when you feel that you can.
    hugs dear Paper.
    Fearing
  • Twylarants said on Jan 13, 2009....
    All of Mr Rants' and my loving thoughts are being channeled this very minute in your direction, Jo dear.
  • killingme4u said on Jan 13, 2009....
    hey paper.if it help's any i think of you often.and will even more.hang in there.we love you.  :))
  • fragglesrock said on Jan 13, 2009....

    i just now collected a whole handful of positive thoughts for you...after whispering the  direction "destination paper" i went outside...  with a wave of my hand i sprinkled the air with my fistfull of positive thoughts...up...up...up they went...the shimmery, glittery, happy thoughts took off up into the night sky... i watched as they swirled and bounced from star to star on their way to landing with you :)

  • Jenna said on Jan 13, 2009....
    sending good thoughts your way sweet one!   I always do.  xoxoxo
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Jan 13, 2009....

    I'm sending you all that I have.  :)

    {{{{{hugs}}}}}
  • CreativeWoman said on Jan 13, 2009....
    Sending positive thoughts your way.

    CW
  • the_infernal_optimist said on Jan 13, 2009....
    ((massive hugs)) and many positive thoughts!

    ~Infernal
  • gingersoul said on Jan 13, 2009....
    Jo-Jo......i know that Grapey wouldn't mind so i double all the love he is sending to you, sweetie, with the same song...
    {{{{hugs}}}}.

    Oh, I got your PM and i've already delivered the message to the recipient...;-P.

    You did such a brave and yet so natural thing......{hugs}.
  • woman said on Jan 13, 2009....
    Lord, be with Paper, give her strength and peace. Tonight let her sleep, resting in your loving hands. Amen
  • cuppajava said on Jan 13, 2009....
    Positive thoughts are on their way to you from sunny South Africa
  • Hegemone said on Jan 13, 2009....
    ****wiggles fingers**** sending happiness, positive thoughts and good will your way!  You should have them right aboooouuuuutttt .... NOW!  Whatever that call is Paper, I certainly hope it's for the best that you get much joy from it.  I'm eagerly awaiting that other post, if SC time is actually trustworthy again you haven't posted it yet, and I'm hoping also to hear that the phone call went well.  Take care friend.
  • Feline'sSoul said on Jan 13, 2009....
    *sends tons of positive thoughts*
     
    everything will be allright <3 :)
     
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 14, 2009....

    Thank you so much ...

    uni  <3
    fearing  <3
    Twy <3 & Mr Rants <3
    J <3
    fraggles <3
    Godmomsie <3
    Grapey aka Soulbrotha <3
    CDub <3
    infernally <3
    Gingery aka bellisimma <3
    woman  <3
    CJ <3
    Hegge <3
    Schnucki <3

    ... I slept through the night (thank goodness no nightmares!).... thank you so much for the positive thoughts and prayers,...

    I would like (and will!) come back for individual replies later (when the deed is done)... it helps to "talk".

    I am so sleepy though because we woke up very early; Piet was going to work, but because I broke down and cried (pressure) he decided to stay at home. 

    I am alright., I will type later what I have to say over the phone to focus and be calmer.  I wish I did not have to wait so long :( (I will make the call either at 15.00 CET or at 19.00... ).

    Today is my dad´s 10 year death anniversary.  I will try to go to the church and light a candle for him as I have been doing every year.

    Again thank you so much for all the support, it lifted my spirits.

    I will definitely update as soon as I can.

    <3

    paper ~

    ___________________________________________________________

    Dear Fellow SCer,

    I would come back to all the comments in my blogs as soon as I have some offline issues settled.  I hope you all understand.  Thank you again for all the interaction, it helped me a lot in coping in the last weeks (months ...years).

    <3
    paper ~

  • diabolicdame said on Jan 14, 2009....
    Hey.. I'm late!!
  • diabolicdame said on Jan 14, 2009....
    comment eaten!
     
    Hey.. I'm late!! But I'm sending good thoughts anyway. You're in my thoughts and prayers.. hope everything goes well!
  • MissMimi said on Jan 14, 2009....
    All good wishes and love on the way to you, paperdoll.  xxoo
  • scipio said on Jan 14, 2009....
    +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ thoughts charging down your way.
  • pusscat said on Jan 14, 2009....
    I am also late due to a long awaited tooth extraction yesterday (Ouch!)

    Even if you have already made that call paper, I'm still sending you as many positive thought as I can to keep your strength up. 

    I too wish for you to be rewarded with happiness you deserve :)

    ((((((((((((((((( P )))))))))))))))))))
  • Mamie said on Jan 14, 2009....
    hey Paper: you have all the support in the world right here....you are stronger than you know...you are on a path set for you by God himself...there is only one thing: and that is LOVE. ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))) mamie
  • RollingC said on Jan 14, 2009....
    I will keep you in my prayers Paper.... God Bless....  Rc
  • CayenneMan said on Jan 14, 2009....
       I'm not late, you know I'll give you that and more 24/7 you and you're family will always be in my prayers.
  • cntlvmenuf said on Jan 14, 2009....
    Paper: Amen to your prayers to the universe. You have all my positive thoughts and I hope it all went better than you expected!
  • starchini said on Jan 14, 2009....

    Dear God please give paper the strength to change the things she can, the courage to accept the things she cannot change, and the wisdom to know the difference.

  • kitty_kat said on Jan 14, 2009....
    Sending positive thoughts your way, the very best of luck with your call. kk x
  • BreatheUnderwater said on Jan 14, 2009....
    <3
  • pickersplock said on Jan 14, 2009....
    I know how you feel sweetie.
    My Dad's death was a year ago last weekend.
     
    I'm mustering all I can though!
    Postive thoughts and party hat butts galore!
  • Alyss said on Jan 14, 2009....
    I am thinking about you Paper.
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 14, 2009....

    Photobucket

    taken 14.01.09

    Thank you so very much...

    dia  <3
    MIssyMims <3
    scipio <3
    PC  <3
    Mamie <3
    Rolling_C <3
    CM <3
    cntlvmenuf <3
    star <3
    kitty_kat <3
    Breathe <3
    pickery <3
    Alyss <3


    23:52 CET central european time
    (dear star, I use the 24 time system I got use to in Germany... this means 11:52 pm... :) I try to record the time for myself because i am ocd that way, lol ... it has a long story, that i will write some other time... )

    ....today has been the longest  day of my life...

    ... i have not cried so much in a way i cried today...it was like chocking laugh, happy chills and simply tears of joy....

    ...we are not yet at the finishing line but it is in view (i feel like a marathon runner today...)...i am so thankful (we are so thankful!!!) for all the moral support, prayers, positive thoughts, love and so much more you have sent...

    i am coming back to this tomorrow for individual comments

    ...i beg your indulgence once more, and i will tell you all the details tomorrow (promise!)... it is just i cannot focus anymore (my apologies if i missed a name & comment!!! it is due to my tired eyes - i will make up tomorrow)...

    I have taken the privelege of marking my dad´s anniversary on this post because I was not able to go to the church... I hope nobody minds... it is important to me...

    (I have been editing for the umpteenth time for it to appear in small format... if it does not , my apologies... and the highlights were just an aid for me to stay awake and focus..)

    Goodnight and until tomorrow... or later ... 00:35 CET

    14.01.09 ... 10th Year ~
  • fragmented said on Jan 15, 2009....
    Continued love, strength, and positive thinking going your way :)
  • queenparanoia said on Jan 15, 2009....
    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 16, 2009....


    Thank you very much

    fragmented <3
    queenie <3

    ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((huggies)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    UPDATE... sort of :

    I am feeling low, and trying hard not to let my spirits fade...

    I am sorry I have not written the detailed update I promised :( .

    The details are still too delicate (last night changed the wind direction :( ) to share.

    My situation has taken a turn, and I cannot see yet beyond a day to day basis. 

    Bureaucracy... *sigh* I am aware that laws exist for a reason and it has a long myriad process before it could exist.  I only wish the authorities see beyond the law and see the lives affected by the certain guidelines of the law... *sigh* ...

    ... perhaps when my life is finally where I wish it should be, I could help others in the same situation I am trying to get myself out of.

    I am sorry for the vagueness, fellow SCers, friends.

    I hope to come back to this blog, with a link to a post telling of our triumph... at the moment it is still a rocky road towards the finishing line...

    Thank you so much for your support, for your blogs, for your words...it means a lot and makes a difference in my life...

    Joanna


  • diabolicdame said on Jan 16, 2009....
    Hey Jo.. again, all the very best!! Still sending lots and lots of good thoughts your way!! I hope the wind changes direction and gets favourable for you!! Take care and stay positive!!
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Jan 16, 2009....

    :)
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 16, 2009....

    Thank you dia, you made my eyes glisten with good tears...

    Thank you soulbrotha... the girls danced to the music while brushing their teeth, Tatie went "Aaah..aah", Piet´s face brightened by a huge smile and the good tears rolled on my cheeks...

    <3


  • Hegemone said on Jan 16, 2009....
    Aww Paper I just stumbled back over this (bad internet connection today, so I've been losing off a lot).  I wish things were going better for you, but in the spirit of positivity, I know they WILL be better.  Whatever cosmic forces are making like rocky for you right now have decided that you, above others, have the strength and the means to make it through these struggles, and you will, and you will feel marvelous about it in the end.  You'll appreciate it that much more too.  I hope that sooner, rather than later, you find the good news you wish to hear.  Paper, I wish there was more I could do you lovely lady, for you and your wonderfully cute, beautiful girls and that big 'ol sweetheart Piet.  Take care, all of you.  ((((((((((((hug)))))))))))
  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Jan 16, 2009....

    (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hege)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    Thank you for sending me off to bed with your words full of warmth and friendship!

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{heart squeeze}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

    <3


  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Feb 25, 2009....

    Again, THANK YOU SO MUCH for taking time to send me positive thoughts, and saying prayers for us....

    uni  <3
    fearing  <3
    Twy <3 & Mr Rants <3
    J <3
    fraggles <3
    Godmomsie <3
    Grapey aka Soulbrotha <3
    CDub <3
    infernally <3
    Gingery aka bellisimma <3
    woman  <3
    CJ <3
    Hegge <3
    Schnucki <3
    dia  <3
    MIssyMims <3
    scipio <3
    PC  <3
    Mamie <3
    Rolling_C <3
    CM <3
    cntlvmenuf <3
    star <3
    kitty_kat <3
    Breathe <3
    pickery <3
    Alyss <3
    fragmented <3

    queenie <3
    dia <3
    Grapey <3
    Heggie <3

    <333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

    blubbies to you all

     paper ~







Comment on "Please..."


(Separate tags using commas, for example: New York, dating, vegetarian)