OK, it's just completely ridiculous because I've realised that I'm totally falling for Antonio. But why is the biggest question that comes to mind. It's not that he really treats me that well (it's more of the opposite, really), or that he says sweet things to me, or does anything remotely in the range of romantic. Still, I can't help myself. If he were a real gentleman, treated me like a princess, or made me feel like I was the only one for him, I'd understand these growing feelings. However, none of these attributes at all describe him. What's wrong with me?

The only time that Antonio shows public displays of affection towards me is when he's drunk. He is rude to me, frequently telling me to shut up when he doesn't want to discuss something. It doesn't phase him in the slightest to slap me on the forehead, or to cut me off when I'm trying to say something. Beyond sex, we don't really hang out together, and we hardly talk about anything of substance. I don't know much about him, and he's not that much of a conversationalist. And, we don't even share the same first language and hence, have some issues communicating.

Again, the question begs to be answered: why the hell am I falling for him? I don't know. He makes me happy. I enjoy spending time with him. I like a guy who doesn't necessarily need to treat a girl "like a girl." He doesn't allow me to take him for granted. I really like having sex with him. Although I'm not so close with him in some ways, I really want to get to know him. He's willing to learn more English, and I'm willing to learn his first language. Having said all that, though, I still can't determine why my feelings are so strong. I mean, is that enough to fall for someone, considering all the shortcomings aswell?