I guess I am going to have to take breaks over the weekends.  With the men home I can't get anything done.  They just suck the life right out of me and are constantly underfoot.

Ok so back to where I left off.  What I did was box up the stuff I didn't get a chance to get through.  So I  will be doing that today.  I didn't get to the top of my nightstand nor the shelf.  That too I will be working on today.

I did take shots of the crap I picked up before I boxed it.

Three pix almost make one when I put them together.  Anyway, tons of shit.  Bubblewrap etc. as this is also my measuring, weighing and wrapping station for when I sell stuff online.  I can't get to my kitchen table so the bed has to do.

I pitched a lot, I rearranged a lot.  I need to decide.  God, this job sucks.

You know, I wonder why no one ever offers to even help me.  I mean if someone offered to help I'd jump at it!  Having outside eyes really puts a perspective on the whole mess.  When we moved my mom helped and she'd just take stuff and throw it out even though in my head I'd be thinking "no!" but I didn't stop her.  I knew she was right.  Where is anyone offering???  You know, people get into these binds and people who see it say "well, why did you let it get so far?" or "why didn't you do something?" or "Did you offer any help?".  Point fingers.  And of course like I don't have enough bad things rolling around my head about myself as is.

I have a friend who also has a messy house.  She wanted to get rid of her carpet.  I said call me, I'll come help you tear it out!  If you want I'll help you pitch stuff and you can help me.  Nope, wanted no part of it.  Well I STILL DO!  I want the help but where does one get it when no one will help here?

God I am so sick of it laying all on my shoulders!!!!!!!!!!!  Do I hear people saying "oh he is such an awful housekeeper"?  No, it is all on the woman's shoulders even if the men are part of the problem and she works too.  It is a woman's guilt and shame.  And you hear "why does he put up with it?".  WHY DOESN'T HE HELP???  That is the question everyone should be asking. 

This isn't how I wanted to say what is in my heart but for now it is the best I can do.