I'm killing time before I have to make some important phone calls.  I have already been on Facebook this morning.  I wanted to be up early enough that I could make the calls at a decent hour.  I don't have an alarm clock of my own.  Anyway, I'm up.  This is a good thing.  I slept most of the day yesterday.  I felt really drained and not up to par.  I'm refreshed now though.  I have some new age music playing right now.  It's really soothing.  Sometimes I like the hard stuff.  Other times I like the peaceful kind.  I was told that you are what you take in by more than one person.  Maybe that explains why I'm so depressed sometimes.  Then again, ever since Mom got a job and I saw my father I'm feeling alot better.  I figured out that my mother has lied to me.  She told me that she ran up all of her credit cards, yet she was still able to use one to go out to eat the other night.  Also, why would another credit card company raise one's credit limit if one has their cards run up like she says?  I know that her finances are none of my business, but damn.  What's the point in making me think that we're in dire straights when we aren't?  That's why her kids pushed her to apply to McDonald's.  She now works there.  She hates it, but oh well.  She's gotta work.  To make me feel guilty because I'm not working right around the time I'm supposed to have the hearing or hear the results of it is inexcusable.  It's as though she's jealous.  Maybe she wants my illness.  I'll gladly give it to her if it will help her understand just how serious it is.