So, it was quite the weekend trip. It didn't help that my flight was delayed, and that I spent an hour waiting for the reschedule, and then a further hour stuck on the tarmac. I got to Antonio's place two and a half hours later than anticipated.

After meeting up with everyone, and getting something to eat, I went back to Antonio's room. It was awkward for a moment as I reflected on the fact that I had spent around $200 on a ticket to spend one night with Antonio. We just sat on the bed chatting while facing one of the walls in the room. We just have the strangest relationship. After a while, though, clothes came off, and that was round 1.

At some point, we had a rather weird conversation, during which it came out that Antonio was indeed sleeping with other girls. I thought that I had asked him before about this topic, but maybe I hadn't. Or, perhaps I hadn't asked the right question, so he simply only told me part of the truth. Anyway, he was saying how we were both seeing the same amount of people on the side, so it was "fair." And that, if I dropped one, he would drop one, etc. I told him that I was actually kind of getting sick of this type of lifestyle; that I had been doing it for years, and I needed to change it. I told him that I wanted to go back to being more traditionally one to one.

Apparently, this one to one sounded like an ultimatum to Antonio. He felt as though I was asking him to choose between his other girls, or just being with me. I assured him that I was voluntarily taking myself out of the equation. If he wanted to be with the other girls, he was just at that stage of life, and I would accept that. But, that would mean that we couldn't be together in the same capacity (i.e., no sex). We could still be friends, of course, hang out, etc., but just none of that kind of physicality. I like him too much to control my feelings if we're that intimate, so that just works out better for me. He said that he "respected" my decision, whatever that meant, but I'm not sure that he believed me.

Later, we grabbed a quick bite to eat before joining everyone else at a club. My friends were playing there, and had 3 sets to do. I sat and watched as they were on stage, and in-between sets, we sat, chatted, and played drinking games. Although we arrived at the club at about 9pm, we didn't leave until about 4am. During this time, I was ridiculously tired, and just wanted to go home. However, since we were all ravenous, we ended up going to MacDonalds to grab an early breakfast.

Rounds goodness-knows-how-many ensued later on. I hope that the other people in the apartment couldn't hear us... Anyhow, Antonio wants the "best of both worlds," although he claimed that he would finish with his other girls and be with me when he returned to Shanghai. All talk, I say. I know him well enough to know that he doesn't want to give such things up. So, I am just getting prepared to "be friends" with him once more. No more games.

Right, so my period started after the second time we were having sex this weekend, but it didn't stop us from continuing. We were both way too horny, I suppose. We went for one more round before lunch/dinner (what do you call a meal at 4pm?), and it was a very unnecessary mess. Good thing that we decided to not include bedsheets and just do it on the plastic covering the mattress. Even so, it was one cleanup job that I would really rather not have to repeat ever again!!

Bottom line? I think it just comes down to this: When Antonio gets back, I'll just ask him if he wants to be with me or not. It's as simple as that. If he's not in wholehearted, then forget it. Normally, I can separate sex and feelings, but not with him. So, I have to treat this case a bit differently. But, I will give him the chance. I don't think it's an ultimatum by any means, you know? If you want to be with someone, you be with them. If you don't want to be with them, you don't. Rather simple, when you think about it that way, no?