Seeing as how this blog is about my sex life, I guess I should start at the beginning? Word of warning-- it was pretty uneventful.
Let's see... I was 14 when I was given oral sex by my 16yo bf. The guy didn't know what he was doing. He sucked so hard on my lips and my clit that they were sore for days!
When did I get my cherry popped?
I ditched school that day. Came over to my boyfriend's house. Football player. Got into his parent's bed. I was shy to even look below his waist. It hurt so badly. Made tears come to my eyes. Bled on the sheets. Washed the sheets afterwards. That's all I remember. I don't care to remember more.
Wish I hadn't lost it to him. He didn't deserve it. I had low self-esteem.
I was afraid of losing him. He confessed to being interested in another girl at his own high school. I used sex to try to get him back. Ended up losing him in the end. Heartbroken.
This might have set the pattern for years to come where I try to leave guys before they leave me.
