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I have the power to teach some of the men who hurt me when I was younger a lesson or two.  Will I do it?  Can I possibly just let it go when the things they did to me still haunt, everyday?  Will I be able to better myself as a result of the pain? 
 
I have the power to take my own life.  Would I be able to bring myself to do so at this point in my life?  Is it possible that I would prefer to live for a change, even though some people hate on me?
 
Most of the time I have the power to think for myself.  Are all of the forces that want to take that power away real?  Do I have the right to send them back to where they came from?
 
Alot of the time I feel powerless.  The pain that I feel emotionally blinds me.  I'm still here. That counts for something.


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  • Me-Myself&I said on Jan 08, 2009....
    the more you fight the dark, each time it becomes easier! the mind can do about anything, whatever you want. only if it's a healthly mind, you know what i mean?
     
    i see one of your tags is ....schizophrenia. huh.... is this a diagnosis?
     
    for the power over people who have hurt you.... well they will hold the power over you....till you forgive, not for their sake but yours! hate will make you sick!
     
    life IS worth living, i promise! *smile* i have been hurt beyond ..... but here i am! i have hardened, wiser, small shit doesn't bother me anymore soooo it's all good and it gets better every year. good days, bad days, wtf days, smiling days, ..... before you know it, you are old *smile*
     
    Welcome to SoulCast!
     
    Hey! time out on the suicide thingy ok :~) Take care ~see ya 
  • darkerthanlight said on Jan 08, 2009....
    I've been here before under a different name.  I'm trying to find everyone that I had on here before I lost my password to the other blog and changed computers.  Do you recall "hellboundmercinary"?  How are you doing?
  • darkerthanlight said on Jan 08, 2009....
    Oh yeah, schizophrenia is one of my diagnoses.
  • PieterOpie said on Jan 10, 2009....
    You MUST take your medication.  If you are ill then it is absolutely essential or the darkness will spread and make you feel bad.  Please get help - it is your well-being that matters and you must continue to seek help to stay well.   Do not slacken off in that just because of momentary depression.  Courage.  
  • darkerthanlight said on Jan 12, 2009....
    Pieter, I'm getting help.  I'm not perfect.  I know this.  Still, I'm getting help.  Tonight or tommorrow I have to make an appointment to see my counselor since they are all back from winter break.  When I get bad enough I call the local Crisis line.  I haven't attempted suicide since July of 2006.  Lately when I think that I am going to try it, I turn around and seek to be locked up for a few days in the local Crisis Unit.  I ain't dead yet.  Or am I?  Oogadee Boogadee Boo!  LOL.  Anyway.

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