The soulcast website is weird in my computer. Sometimes it allows me to do my post in the "compose" mode but that is rare. For most of the time it's like this, with no spaces in between. The itch to write something made me create a post today. Just came from the province. My family celebrated the new year there. I got back to manila today, january 1. I slept around 11 pm last night, did not even bother to wake up for the traditional 12 midnight jumping and shouting and noise barrage and media noche. I was soundly sleeping at the room upstairs. My family knew better than to wake me up. I guess I have develop a nasty reputation of being a stiff and kill joy. A spinster at 26. wow. I have not been part of the holiday celebration. I did not buy gifts for anyone. I have not replied to greetings via text messages. And even if I did greet people personally it's because I have been greeted first and it'll be awkward not to say something back. It's parrot like though. I have been opening text messages only to delete afterwards. My low tech not colored nokia phone can only hold some fifty text messages. The only real celebration that I did was with angela. I brought her with me to pay for the monthly due of the sports club one day before overdue. She was so excited and we ate lunch together. I promised her that the next time we go back there, we'll go swimming. She can hardly contain her excitement, spilling all over her eyes and wide smile. She's my everlasting source of pure happiness. I'm thinking of setting aside one day a week to used the sports club facilities. I'm paying the monthly bills and yet I don't have time to really used it. My clients in my burger biz are now regular. I have delivery five times a week. I am at the maximum of my capability with regards to producing burger. I really have to take into consideration expanding through the use of machineries. I don't have money for that now. Making burger orders occupy most of my day. It takes about 6 hours of labor to complete one order, and it's physically tiring. That's the limitation, my physical capability. I have already maximized my potential there. During busy days it's typical that I work from 6 am to 11 pm. And then do the same thing the next day. I'm not complaining but I'm also thinking that too much of work could have some effect on my health later. I don't want that. I want to be still in perfect health condition even when I'm 80 y/o. I got back to manila one day earlier than my other sisters who'll be coming back tomorrow because of two things. I have a yearly reunion with my old time highschool friends - one of those that I can't really escape because they know where I live and the venue for this year is just ten minutes away from our house, if I don't show up tonight, they'll be banging at our door in no time at all. They know me too well that even if I told them to go away they just won't listen and will just drag me along. I think I could used some company tonight. The second thing is I will replenished my raw materials stock early tomorrow morning, and that will take at least one day work. well, that's it, got to get ready. I wished I could magically just dissapear my disinterest and be interested and really be involved in something. I've been living my life like I owe the world. And 2008's theme was waiting on RC. I could'nt get anymore pathetic than that.That's like the floorboard for me. And it's frustrating because knowing that I have chosed one year of my life to be spent waiting on someone doesn't make any difference. I'm still in love with this guy.hay buhay.and yeah, Like any dutiful "friend" he greeted me on both occasions. And I acted the part of the vindictive ex, I didn't even spend one peso to greet him back. I have nothing solidly planned for 2009, one thing sure though, I'm gonna erase him from my life. At least in my heart. If I could think of business for all those times that I think of him, I'd be really rich in no time.