First of all, happy new year to everyone! :>

As per my previous post, I've stated that I'm ready to enter a relationship, which is true, and from the heart.

Okay, here goes, even though JC is in Manila, and I am in the province for the holidays, we still continue to text message each other every chance that we get, which means every hour or so.

JC already introduced me to his closest friends, and now he told me that he just mentioned me to his aunts (He is spending New Year's day with his relatives), and now the aunts and uncles are interested in meeting me.

So what seems to be the problem? Clearly, JC is proud of me, and is serious about me, telling people who I am in his life. However, I on the other hand, have not introduced him to anybody in my life. Sure, I've told a few friends, but I haven't really introduced him. I haven't even casually mentioned his existence to mom. But why? I'm a very private person and sad to say, I am quite a coward introducing anyone to mom. The last boyfriend that I've introduced or mentioned to mom, it went kaput. I know, I know, moms are like that. But the problem here is me. I am anxious.

In the past, ex boyfriends have been proud of me. Meaning, they talk about me with their relatives, their friends and to people. They say I'm this, and that, and all exes told me that if they were to compare me to a product classification, I'd be a class S. Man, I wish I had the same guts to be all out in my dating life as these people were. But the truth is, I'd like too make my dating life as tightly capped as possible. Why? To avoid criticism, conflicts, attachments from the people around us. Yes, that's the reason.

Something tells me that I should start opening up to mom. But then again, I run my life. I don't even talk about love life with mom. We are not mushy like that. We talk about work, my sisters, and tv shows, but I refuse to divulge any information on my dating life. Yes, I'm just your typical 23 year old. My mom trusts my judgment, and has started to treat me as an adult so she definitely thinks I know what I am doing with my life, however, I don't know about relationships though. Gaah, this is why I don't want to start thinking about the effects of being serious about a guy. Complications arise. LOL.

Oh well, as they say, complications is just a state of mind. :)

Happy New Year,

Jackie