Things are going a lil bit better.  I'm still tired as all get out though.  I just wish I could sleep one good night, early, getting up at the naturally right time (whenever my body wakes me up, not the phone, my alarm clock, somebody else, somebody else's alarm clock, not the animals, etc.).  That whole holiday break I had ... not one sleeping break for me.  Isn't that some shit?

Yesterday we got an assload done in the clubhouse finally.  Which, to let everybody in on that little secret ... part of my cleaning and rearranging mission is tied in with operation move out.  The more stuff I can pack up and move over to the farm the better.  I'm only making it appear to dad that we're just making space ... when in reality, I'm making it easier for my husband and I to move out.  The goal is to downsize to the minimum required to get by in a daily routine, plus maybe a couple extra things here and there, just so my dad doesn't get tipped off.  This way, if he gives us any trouble upon telling him we want to move out (which will not be revealed to him until we have enough money saved to actually do it), most of our stuff will already be out and we won't have to endure agonizing extra time getting it all out.  See, I'm a thinker ... I never do any one thing for any one reason, there's usually always multiple reasons or benefits.

Either way, we got the clubhouse completely cleaned out and now the third partition is a storage area that is nice and neat enough to walk around in and be able to easily access things.  No more cluster fuck that you can't even walk into to find anything.  We cleaned the 2nd partition, the actual clubhouse where we sit and hang out, so it's all nice and spiffy too.  All of my FIL's stuff is in the 1st partition, so quite easy access for him, he doesn't have to crab if we've got the 3rd blocked off for any reason.  Now it's down to minor touch ups.  One of our friends is wanting to get into this long lengthy process, which to be honest, I'm not really that gung ho about.

It's going to be a big project and I don't see us being able to do it or afford it.  We've never put much cash into the clubhouse.  The things that get bought for it come from all of the change we collectively throw in Mr. Tinkles (clubhouse piggy bank) over time.  Right now all that's sitting in there is $10.  Need to go to the dollar store to get supplies sometime soon actually, but doubt we will anytime soon.  Anyway, just knowing the way things generally go, I don't forsee this project being doable.  Also, it has to be approved by my FIL ... which I have this funny, gut feeling, that he's not going to be interested in our doing what they want to do and he'll nix it right there.  There is also a part of me that would like to do it.  They want to take a wall out between the 2nd and 3rd partition, making one large partition.  If this happens it will make it harder to hold the heat in ... we'll have to redo the electric so we can run the heaters that we'll need to get ... or the fans for when it's hot out.  Further, we'll have to make sure to build a steady support underneath of where the wall would have been.  An actual ceiling will need to be build because that'll take away all of the storage area, as they want to make it into more sitting room and storage for cabinets and stuff.  The ceiling will need to be built because then all of the boxes and things can go up there, as it will be like a little attic for us.

So doing that project has it's benefits and also it's downfalls.  I'm just happy that the damn thing is clean for what it is now and I feel like I can actually go in there and sit down and relax.  Before yesterday, all I would do is sit in there with this feeling of unease and all I wanted to do was get up and CLEAN! 

I'm hoping that today I'll have enough mojo to go home and do a bit of cleaning like this.  See, another part of the clubhouse cleaning project is to take things from home, pack them up into boxes (which we already have at home) and ship them to the CH to make room in the room right next to our bedroom.  If we make room in that room, we can move some furniture in there and have a little den area in which us and our friends can sit to play the board games we've been playing lately.  Perhaps we can even move our entertainment center over there so there can be tv/movie watching/game playing and we don't have to sit in our damned bedroom to do it all.  We'll see where I get with that though, but I'm damned well determined, so I'm sure I'll figure something out.  I'm a woman on a mission dammit!

As for right now, I'm piddling around (I typed pissling originally, which I thought I'd add in just for a little comic relief ... and oh yes, I typed ass instead of add the first time, I must be having a very sssss day) at work.  I'm supposed to packing files, which I've packed four boxes now.  Also I need to clean out the supply cabinet in my boss's office and combine my supplies with her supplies in that office.  So yes, yet again, I'm cleaning out my office it feels like.  Not every little thing, but most of it.  Just as well, I don't use any of the files that I've packed, and neither does she!  So all of the files I DO use will be moved to a closer filing cabinet to me and I'll be all set until I either get booted or told what to do anyway.

I'm thinking these tasks will not take the whole 4 hours I'm supposed to be here today ... so I'm supposed to call her when I run out of stuff to do.  I'm hoping she can't come up with anything else and I can just go home, for a few reasons:

1. I just don't feel like working today really.
2. I have a feeling she might mention coming to her house to work with her, which I really don't want to do.
3. My MIL is having major surgery on her knee today, I'd rather just be at home and accessible since if anything goes on I'm to receive a phone call and then contact my husband at work.
4. Sick Kitty is ok, but I do need to call the vet and ask questions and monitor him closely.

So there's a few reasons I'd rather just hear her say 'Oh, you can just go home.' instead of finding some other crap for me to do.  Perhaps I can milk what I have until close enough to time to go home ... even if I still have a spare 45 minutes, I'll still go home early without calling her ... but if not, and I suspect not, I'll just have to chance it and see what happens.

I need some caffeine too, I think.  That will get my mojo going.  For sure.  Ah, well, at least things are good for now, I'm relaxed, even if a bit tired, and things seem to be going ok for now.  I'm going to enjoy this because for all I know, in two hours, all hell could be breaking lose.

Also I'd just like to say, I know I've been a little bit of a snot lately ... posting about myself and not commenting anywhere else.  Well, I've been reading some, just haven't had the time to comment.  I think I have commented on a couple, but more often than not I've just been taking a quick breeze through.  The way things have been going lately, by the time I get here I'm too pooped to poop, if ya know what I mean.  The only way I get my posts out are because I might hit up the computer periodically in Word and save it for later until I've got a post finished, then I just hop on here for a minute, post it and take off after reading one or two others.  I'll be back to making comments soon enough ... just have had a lil too much insanity on my end.  Sorry guys.