Bit of a strange one for this time of the year,and even this time of the day,but,it was on my mind,and before i drive myself to distraction with it,I thought it would be better written down.
You see,there is this thing called FEAR.
Now whether it is fear of rejection or fear of acceptence,or even fear of failure,it is still there - it is in all of us somewhere.Sometimes we try and hide behind it,sometimes we just ignore it - but its still there.
Do I have anything to be fearful of? Well to be honest,there isnt much that scares me.I would rather say that i dont fear something,but rather respect it for what it is.If i cannot change it to make it suit my needs,then so be it.
But do we really have a fear of the unknown,even if we have the power within our grasp to be able to alter our destiny,so that the unknown may not be so scary after all?
Do we really have a fear of rejection that much that it prompts us to want to change who we are,just to want to fit in with a certain trend that is doing the rounds right now?
Do we really have a fear of failure,or did we know before we started that whatever it was that we were trying to do was not going to work - but we decided that we would try anyway just to save face?
I am not even sure where i am going with this.Is it because i am facing a potentially crippling operation in less than 90 days,and have absolutely no fucking idea what i am going to do if things go wrong - maybe.
Or maybe,now that i am on leave,and at home,I have got too much time on my hands to think.....and that can sometimes be dangerous,even for me
cuppajava posted on Dec 27, 2008
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cuppajava said on Dec 27, 2008....
SC strikes again -this was not done 6 hours ago - it was done at 14 37pm precisely
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beyondtheveil said on Dec 27, 2008....
We all have fear, there is no getting out of it. If you look on fear as coming from a threat of any kind, its with us constantly. You certainly don't have to be conscious of fear to have it. Perhaps its how you define it. I think worry is also a form of fear. -
wishyouwerehere said on Dec 27, 2008....
Fear thrives in darkness - it is my belief that it loses a lot of it's power when it is acknowleged and forced into the light. A lot of fear comes from our egos and the need to preserve and protect a separate identity when in reality we are all made from the same divine light.
Some fears are well founded - like the fear of your operation. It is undeniably a risk, CJ, but a well calculated one with tremendous potential benefits. There is a known outcome if you do not take this leap - forgive me for being so opinionated, but that alternative is totally unacceptable. You are far too young, full of life, creativity and dreams to allow physical limitations and pain to rule your destiny. There is fear, yes- and if there wasn't, I would question your sanity. What I do not question for one moment is your strength and your courage, way stronger than the fear. My money's on you entirely to win this battle. You can and you will.
Love, Wishy
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Lucytorial said on Dec 27, 2008....
Fear can be used CJ to womtivate us, by looking at that fear and asking it what it is trying to do you may understand that it is not a scary thing, or a negative thing. Fear can make you very aware, it can heighten your senses, and allow you to see things that most wouldn't. Don't let fear grip you, rather use it as another emotional motivator, you may move forward with fear as a tool. -
Lucytorial said on Dec 27, 2008....
womtivate?? thats my dyslexia I wish soulcast would damn well give us edit comment again... tee he he I was meaning motivate -
pusscat said on Dec 27, 2008....
I may not be able to stop the fear from creeping in my love, but I know you are not too afraid to face it. I can only be with you in spirit but spirit is what you have never been short of. Just remember - fear is not your enemy. Numbness would be my enemy. Fear keeps us alert. Fear makes us think.
God forbid "now have the bodies they did not start out with. They could have just crumbled and given up, yes, the easy option. Since when did you rely on the easy option? Since when did something happen to you that made you give up? you have been through so much more than anyone I have ever known and still you keep on keeping on. This is what you will continue to do CJ NO MATTER WHAT.
Thinking of you love.
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Me-Myself&I said on Dec 28, 2008....
huh....Pusscat, yup....fear keeps us alert!
i quess the old saying is true....the only thing to fear is fear itself.
good luck cj.
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pusscat said on Dec 28, 2008....
Oh dear - I just read my comment again and it looks like silly me deleted a bit when I first wrote it. That last paragraph should have said, God forbid, should something go wrong with your op CJ but, there are many who who now have the bodies the did not start out with..... sorry about that.
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