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It rained on Christmas.  It would be a perfect metaphor, the perfect end to the perfect year if it wasn't a cold wet reality.  The inches of rain threatening to bring hundreds of pounds of mud into my back door make it less metaphor and more reality. 
 
Reality isn't really somthing I'm instrested in though.  This was the year that Christmas forgot.  I can't say it's not my fault. I could have done more.  The plastic tree was sitting in the garage and just like everybody else I ignored it.  I didn't wrap my presents in pretty paper or the house in lights.  I didn't bake cookies or make carmel corn.  I can't pass the blame.  Not all of it anyway.
 
It doesn't change the facts though.  Doesn't change that out of five family members seven gifts generated by two members (one of which was a coop) were exchanged.  Doesn't change the fact.
 
I know today is supposed to be cherry but I'm simply not feeling it.  Instead I'm feeling a renewd vigor to make 2009 mine.  Still I can't change facts and the fact is that it rained on Christmas.  A year that saw one girlfriend imprisoned (probably for any important parts of her life) and the other married (likely divorced before 12 months have passed *maybe wishful thinking*) my business hit hard times. 
 
I say it again and I intend to confirm it in less than a week.  I'm still here.  The world, God, Karma whatever they took their fucking best shot and I still draw breath and I'm sick and fucking tired of being a victim.  Starting 01/01/07 there will three kinds of people in the world.  Those who help me.  Those who get out of my way.  those I kill without mercy.  Make your peace with me or your gods and do it right now cus time is officially up 12/31/08.


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  • D6fer said on Dec 26, 2008....
    I am assuming you meant 01/01/09?
     
    I am kinda feeling the same way about the future.....I've got a new wind in my sails and I intend to run over whatever dingies (little boats) get in my path!
     
    Although I have had a pretty good xmas so far.....had both kids and their significant others in the house for the last couple of nights and I didn't even feel like killing them once!
     
    I made a killer prime rib dinner!
     
    We have our big family get together tommorrow (26th) at my bros house....we do a white elephant exchange....that's usually fun.
  • GrapeKoolaid said on Dec 26, 2008....
    Hope you find what you're looking for in '09. 

    Best wishes to you. 
  • Lucytorial said on Dec 26, 2008....
    Sean I hope that you make your 2009 more than yours, make it a success personally, as well as family and business wise along with a good dose of intimacy.
  • starchini said on Dec 29, 2008....

    I like the cut throat attitude...I have felt uve always had it but its good that its been renewed! 

    Good luck sean.  THRIVE and take no prisoners!!! 

    Hoo Rah!

  • SeanRenaud said on Dec 30, 2008....

    I can no longer afford to be bothered with prisoners.  That was part of the problem that I had this year was that I was far too . . .not forgiving but just ignoring most shit.  On a side note my business partner lost his grandfather.  Thats 3 deaths in a little over 9 months. 

    Worse when he told me I started laughing.  I didn't mean to but the last time we'd spoke we were both talking about the fact that 08 was over we survived and we are going forward.  And then up rears 08 to take one last strike at him.  It's like it won't fucking stop until it beats him or me. 

    But I'm resting now, not doing much of anything that isn't absolutely required.  But I will be back and ready to go soon.

  • starchini said on Dec 30, 2008....
    oh wow, thats aweful about ur partner.  I guess 08 hasnt shat on me near as much as u.   What a sean thing to do, laugh at someone dieing.  : P  .  Get ur rest, and thrive in 09.  : )
  • QUEENandora said on Jan 02, 2009....
    09 suks already
  • andora said on Jan 02, 2009....
    i lived next to the ocean when i first moved to Maui in 98...i used to lie in bed listening for tsunami's. I thought i was just spewing some Post Traumatic Stress from days past and chided myself for feeling terror. However, when i moved away from that spot, this stress left my body..so, regardless of the fact that I did my best to deny my terror, it never left me until i went to safer ground.

    my point sean?

    when i read your bleak post the only thing i heard was the bone crushing terror that comes from sleeping under a mountain of mud! I kid u not. When my daughter, who lives in LA, told me it was raining on Xmas, I said, oh those poor folks that live under unstable hills! we actually felt for you Sean. especially after years of brush fire, every time it rains hard in LA, people everywhere experience, denied and not so denied terror moment to moment. Do not under-estimate the power that denied terror has upon one's health.

    here's some unsolicited advice...move away from the ocean and out from under any hills...no matter where you are on earth. fearing a mudslide is a very rational emotion...one that would save the lives of those who are willing to adjust their living situation so that they do not become victims. you said you do not like the part of you that is a victim, yet this very reasonable voice is trying to keep you from becoming one. i guess the mother in me is always wishing people would listen more to the reasonable voices that are also fearful. this war on fear motto is very self defeating...very stupid...fear is a warning - deny it and it mutates into denied fear, which typically leads to anger blah blah blah...vicious and predictable trap, to say the least.

    sorry about the girlfriends dear - that's depressing...i hope a mountain of mud is not part of your solution! but if you persist in denying it, i have even more advice - take up the Argentine Tango, that takes my mind off of all Intimidating Form and women love, love love a man that can dance the Tango. serious

    i laughed about the typo and D6's timely response.

    tanks 
  • truthsayer said on Jan 03, 2009....
    Hey kiddo.  I am so glad that I felt the need to check in on you today.  I am here.  I know I am a long ways away...that I am a much older married woman...but still....I am here.  What can I do for you? 

    My life circumstances have been horrible for the last year too.  I can relate.  I have loved ones in trouble, and that can't be with us right now.  I am doing my best to keep a roof over our heads and keep writing, get published (book and articles...publish or perish, I guess) and keep our family together.  It's working.  Day by day, it's working. 

    Sure I'd like all the trouble to end IMMEDIATELY.  And it will...it already has, if you know what I mean Einstein.  But, still, it is hard and it isn't only me that is going through hard times.  I see it all around me.  The people that have had the hardest times themselves, are the ones that have helped us the most. 

    So what are we going to do about it SeanR?  What CAN we do about it?  I am working to change things, reform...yes...get bolder, more decisive, and yet, more compassionate and passionate.  I have had a huge amount of help from friends in church.  Huge.  How is your support system?  How is your father? 

    Okay.  I am getting nosey now.  I just want you to know that I am not as concerned about your circumstances because you and I are living proof that God is not a respecter of persons...life happens.  But I do want to know that you are well supported and that you are embracing change. 

    I know, I know...it's the "mother" in me, no doubt.  But I can handle this.  I have not been given more than I can handle.  My anchor is solid and my roots are deep.  I know how to strike the Rock for water and how to sit down and be fed.  So friend, I am here for you, if you need me.  How can I help?  What can I do?  What is it that you are looking for when you said, "those who help me"?  I am here.  Tell me what kind of help you need.  If I can help, I will.

    Love, Truth and Power in 2009,

    Truthsayer  
  • QUEENandora said on Jan 17, 2009....
    We all gotta die some time. Rain,mud, snow, heat, cold. Our government is going to kill you first.
  • SeanRenaud said on Jan 17, 2009....
    It can try.  But I'm the One spoken of in legend.  I'm immortal and if this last year didn't kill me it certain proved my immortality.
  • truthsayer said on Jan 18, 2009....
    Greetings o'sliced bread legend ; )  Nice to see you again.  Be blessed,  Truth : )
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Me on the river...
I got confuzzled when I stopped in to get gas where I used to work, and the new lady there, who I've talked to some, interupted me with a question.

"So, you're divorced, aren't you?"

"What? Where'd you hear that?"

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storing the feeling of a remarkable day - another SC magic for me...
Why I need several aspirin and a hot compress....
and who I'm not...