I barely started my blogs on Soul Cast not too long ago and I feel that I've found an extremely comfortable niche on the internet. I love reading about what others want to say and it's an elating experience to respond to their posts and have them respond back to my comments. It's all rather enlightening and it really helps one to open their minds. I can only hope that the other people on Soul Cast can get a rich experience, similar to what I'm feeling. ^__^ Now that that happy news is out, on to Buddhism!
Lately, I've been studying Buddhism. I am attracted to Buddhism because it is not a traditional Western form of thought. It's something I HAVEN'T grown up with, nor is it something the majority of the society I live in endorses as their truth (in the way they endorse Christianity as their truth). The Buddha was so unconcerned with questions of metaphysics. I also like the idea that the whole idea behind it, is to lessen suffering (known as dukkah). I think we all know what suffering is like. I can just imagine someone coming across my blog and telling me that some people suffer more than others. Yes, I realize this, but the fact is, people suffer and no matter on what level, it still hurts. If you see a little child fall on the ground and scrape their knee, they're going to feel pain and cry. Another child might fall on the ground and break their leg and of course they will feel pain and cry, but does this lessen the pain of the other child? Hardly. Pain is pain. We all suffer. To be able and lessen suffering seems like a good thing. One can argue that we NEED to suffer in order to appreciate things. That may be so, but must we suffer all of our lives? Is that really necessary?
The Buddhism I'm studying is early Buddhism. All the stuff that was taught before the Buddha died (afterwards, Buddhism split into different sects. Also when it went to America, it changed again).
The Buddha says, "By oneself alone is evil done, by oneself alone is evil avoided and by oneself alone is one saved. Salvation and damnation depend on oneself--no one can save another."
I wonder if the Buddha was an atheist? So far in my readings, it certainly seems so. Maybe he was a Deist. Oh well, I guess it's just one of those mysteries... anyway, the core of Buddhism are The Four Nobel Truths which are about dukkha and how to end it and how to reach Nirvana. I wonder if this truly possible? I would love to try but honestly, I don't want to be unconcerned with metaphysics. I LIKE thinking about the Ultimate Nature of Reality and I like to ponder the questions of others and also to ponder upon answers given. I really love not knowing certain things. I find that to be in the dark in certain matters means that there is still many things for me to learn. I am still very young, in a sense life has just begun for me. There are many things out there that I can't wait to be a part of.
Now, back here on Earth, I've been reading short stories by Bram Stoker. His stories are so well written and truly grim. There was one story that I read, however, that did have a happy ending of sorts. It's called "The Spectre of Doom" and is about a city who is overrun by a populace that would be termed as "sinful". There is one little girl who is orphan who one day sees a giant coming towards the city. She tries to warn everyone, they laugh at her and are blind to the figure. Only she can see it. It turns out the giant named "Plague" who comes and "cleans out" the city. It is clearly stated near the ending, "Innocence and devotion save the city." This means the innocence and devotion of one little girl saves many people from the plague. Is it just me or does this have slightly religious undertones to it? I wonder if it was meant that way? I wonder where my copy of "Dracula" went? Hm. Next on my reading list is "The Picture of Dorian Gray". I already know what it's about and the main events that occur, but I have actually never read it and I think it's a shame. I have a huge crush on Oscar Wilde. He was brilliant, witty, handsome, and homosexual. Therefore, he and I could never be, but I can still dream. Oh and he's deceased. That's a huge deciding factor on my relationship with him. It seems all the men I fall for are either deceased, gay or out of my reach. Perhaps some day it won't always be as such.
It's nearly 3 a.m. and this blog is getting much too long. I should get some work done.



