Today i decide to blog for the first time in my life.Feeling that, this could be a better way to write down my thoughts and idea and also as a reminder for me to prevent myself doing something i hate to.

Its been 5 day since i confess to her, she rejected me by telling me that she goin to Australia to further her studies and the fact that she havent officially break with her arabian mate.I dont really understsnad how she thinks, she's a fair petite chinese that loves party and japanese food, but she choose to remain unhappy with her arabian's mate.They always argue and i know she dont enjoy the days with him.And due to some religious constraint arabian only eats Mc Donald for thier breakfast, lunch and dinner and that is what she took everytime they go out for meal.

I always thought that loves is about happiness,I am confident that i can be a better man and gives her happiness.Currently i have 2 admirers that keep asking me out for dinners and movies.I dont think that im very good looking, but at least i aint ugly.I tried to be caring and understanding for the pass 5 days after i confess.But things doesnt change, I starting to feel that she feeling colder towards me.

Decided to stop anoyed her, i choose to give up and "Initiate" the recovery mode.I started to do different stuffs to entertain myself ; such as reading alot of magazine and start bloging.Its quite useful thou.

For my personal exprience, i kinda like get used to be heart broken.So im feeling alrite and still acting like how i used to be.

 I success to deceives all the peoples around me, but i coudlnt deceive my self knowing  that im really dissapointed that i dont have the opportunity to pamper her.

Any how, currently she live active and happily, so i think as long as she happies with her decision, it doesnt matter who he choose and what she thinks. ^_^