I know that I can't go around hexing people just because they have pissed me off.  I have hexed before.  It came back on me, obviously.  I know what I have and haven't done.  I also know what I should be doing since I can't change the past.  I should be doing things to enlighten others.  Instead of being one of those people that cruel people hold down forever and a day, I can find a way to get back up.  I have to one day be able to work despite my disability.  I hope that I'm not permanently poor.  I hope to succeed in finding financial stability someday.  I also hope to find peace of mind and happiness, even if it means that I never get involved with a man again.  After I got engaged both times, and left the men due to what was happening in the relationships, I had to leave mostly all of my belongings behind.  That's twice in which I practically had nothing but two suitcases and a carry on.  Both times it took a while to build my belongings back up again.  At least I had a computer that came down here after I moved away the second time.  I refuse to get close to a man again because of the fact that I am tired of losing my belongings.  I know that I will never be able to make a man happy when I am done with myself.  I'll only be able to do myself justice.  If I am kind to random people and don't get attached to them, then that's cool.  I wouldn't mind that.  I know that one guy said that I have a problem.  I really think he needs to realize what his is.  He doesn't even really know me, yet I have a prob?  Anyway, who the hell cares?  I know what I have to do.  It may take time and effort.  Still, it will be worth it.  If all those people want to do is to see me fail at life, they have problems.  They are sadistic and warped.  They judge me, so I'll do it back, despite the old saying that "Two wrongs don't make a right."  I don't think that I am wrong.  Society might though.  I'm glad that his girlfriend was yelling at him.