This brings us to today. My husband was up before 9,
called our friends at 9:30 ... they were NOT ready to get up. They
ignored the first couple of calls. I only knew about two calls.
Apparently he called them like five times in the matter of an hour or an hour
and a half. Well, because he didn't set an actual time they didn't set an
alarm and it was Sunday, so they wanted to sleep in. It ticked them off a
bit that my husband called so many times in such a short amount of time.
I don't blame them. To be honest, I woke up on the wrong side of the bed
... correction; I got woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I didn't even
want to wake up then, he woke me up. I will not lie, I was a crabby,
tired, out of milk (yeah, nice, no milk to drink in the morning either)
bitch. I did not even try to curb it. I told him straight out that
I was in a bad mood, I didn't want to be awake and that next weekend there will
be NO plans made. NONE. Nothing before 11am. There WILL
be sleeping in, as I've been kept up past midnight for the last five or six
days and then required to get up hella earlier than I needed to.
We at least got a few things done this morning while waiting for them to
call. Tidied up and fixed up my horse's stall a bit better. Cleaned
the outer area around it too. Got my laundry done finally. They
arrived, the guys cut wood forever (me and my friend sat, watched and
talked).
I found out that they haven't been coming around a lot because EVERY time my
husband calls them it's to help him do some kind of work. It's never just
to hang out, and most of the time when the work is done, my husband doesn't
make any effort to hang out after; he just wants to call it a day and say
goodbye. So a lot of times they don't pick up either because then when
they do, they feel obligated to help or whatever, whether they feel like it or
not. Also, they don't like coming to our house to hang out because of my
dad. My dad said he didn't give a shit. Things come up and if he
has to come back and yell at us (cuz we're 12, remember that) then they need to
just get over it. She just needs to get over herself being all pissy
because he threw an empty beer can at her prized car. She has a camaro,
she loves that car, and yes he did throw an empty can at it, he was being
playful I guess. She blew a gasket on me, I snapped at her to shut up, I
didn't feel like listening to somebody bash my dad (this was like two weeks ago
and I had already had a pretty shitty day) right now so just to drop it and
that I wasn't excusing his behavior, it was wrong and it was bullshit and aside
from that, I had already called him (we were down at the other house, I had
driven on ahead to the farm and they were following when he tossed the can) and
bitched him out.
So great, because my husband always puts our friends to work, and my dad is
scary, disrespectful and a complete ass, I don't get to have friends because
none of them want to come around. Makes me feel wonderful. Also I
had to listen to her basically call my husband dumb, which pissed me the hell
off but I held my tongue for that point. Then I ripped into her about her
mom in a selective way (selective because this is the friend whose mom I work
for) since her mom had been shitty with me (the school thing). Basically
after that I was happy that they were going to be leaving, which they
did. I was put out, I felt a lot alone, I felt stuck, I felt cheated, I
felt depressed and tired. I go home to mounds of dishes to do, so I got
those going. Then my dad starts piling it on. That was when
he told me "tough shit" about our friends not wanting to be here
because of him, and also gave me a bitchy attitude because I hadn't been there
all day. So here's my rundown of what I suddenly had required of me:
Dishes, going to get crickets for the turtle, helping him put window plastic
up, writing out a bill for my husband, balancing the checkbook, looking up
addresses for Christmas cards and making them up, going with my husband to put
gas in his truck and drop the cards in the box, take a shower and our friends
wanted to play more scattergories.
I worked my way through the dishes, found the addresses and wrote the cards,
attempted writing the bill out and balancing the cb, but when I got partway
through my dad was walking around the house whistling to his already annoying
music. I asked him twice to stop and he wouldn't, and he just got
louder. It was distracting me really bad while I was trying to write the
check for the bill. I mean, I started shaking. How can I write a
check that way? So I almost punched my computer off the desk, luckily I
controlled myself and threw the checkbook and pen instead. Then I went
out to finish the very last load of dishes and he asked me 'I thought you were
writing out a bill.'
Me: snapping "Well I was but you were distracting me so fucking much
I'll just finish the damn dishes and we can do the fucking window plastic since
you won't leave me alone until we do."
Him: What?
Me: You were whistling and it was bothering me.
Him: Huh?
Me: I asked you twice to stop, just a minute ago, and you wouldn't.
Him: Laughing ... Oh I guess I couldn't hear you over the whistling.
Me, thinking, YEAH YOU STUPID LOW LIFE PIECE OF SHIT, BECAUSE YOU STARTED
WHISTLING LOUDER EACH TIME I ASKED. I seriously wanted to take a butcher
knife to him, slice him into tiny little chunks, put them in the empty jars we
use for pickling with some flour, water and bouillon and have homemade dog
food. I was SO tempted. So I make it partway through stuff ... my husband
comes back from his shower ... we have to go get crickets and look for window
plastic (the only kind he had was for the picture window). We take the
truck since we need to gas it up anyway. About five minutes away from the
house ... it happened ...
He dropped his drive shaft. FUCK.
MOTHERFUCKSHITPISSGODDAMMITSONOFAWHOREPISSWHIPINGMOTHERFUCKER!
We JUST got the damn thing up and running, licensed, title switched to our
names, insured. He was supposed to drive it to work in the morning.
So we had to have it towed home, had to call our friends and tell them we
weren't gonna be able to hang out later since the night had taken an unexpected
turn. They offered to come up and help, I told them it was up to them
because they had helped earlier and I didn't want them to feel like they were
obligated (well, come on, they told me that they didn't like that earlier in
the day, how was I supposed to respond?!), I said if anything they could get a
good laugh at the scenario and maybe help if absolutely needed. My FIL
decided to give my husband 20 questions before agreeing to come up to help us,
he wanted to diagnose EXACTLY what went wrong right then and there. It
was dark. It was not fixable on the road, we knew that much
already. Just come the hell up and get us and the truck and get us the
fuck home! So yeah, towed it home, had to ride home with the
friends. When I tried to climb into the back of his truck (he's got a 2
door Tahoe and not nearly enough room for a person to climb in to the back seats)
I screwed my knee up more, I felt shit tear. It hurts really badly right
now. I found out my husband had gotten sawdust in his eye while cutting
wood, it was hurting him badly. We played the game for a little while
once we got the truck settled and got done.
We came home, I had to get a bath, had to dog proof our room since she has to
come in for the ice storm. Had to fix our dinner in the dark because dad
went to bed before we had eaten and he blows a complete and utter fuse if we
turn any lights on once he's gone to bed, because he WILL NOT close his bedroom
door. Had to sneak around just to do all of the rest of what we needed to
do before bed. It started raining before we could get the dog in, so we
had to towel her off first. So now here I sit in a room, feeling really
shitty, tired, smelling wet dog and my husband is crowding me on the bed and
just because of that I want to punch him in the face hard enough to knock him
off the bed. I'm in a really sour mood. I should be fine by
morning, but right now I just want to have my own damn pity party. Again,
by morning I'll be fine. I think this is an understandable thing though. I just hope the dog doesn’t poop overnight …
usually she doesn’t … but the way things have been going … tonight could be the
night. Then I’d have the figurative AND
the literal shitty situation going on.



