After a few months I stumbled from failed relation I've met this guy. We grew up from different culture, different religion and from different country. It was a good start (I guess) we shared a lot of things knowing we had a lot of differences, after almost half a year of being together i finally realized that I loved him more than I expected. It was a great and I was really not expecting to look forward (at least for the meantime) to end up hearing the wedding bells, for me it will takes a lot of time and be prepared in the future. After a few months, I just went out for vacation in my country and still we kept in touch, telephone calls, text messages, email and all kinds of communication. After a month he picked me up from the airport while carrying a long stem rose and waited for me to come out of the airport after 2 hours, I was overwhelmed and felt so happy for having him. Unexpectedly one day that we planned to go out and see each other, there were a sudden change from him and was not answering my phone calls and messages. After finally trying to reach him many times he just answered me a plain text message and saying that, "leave me alone, everything's finish between the two of us". I was shocked and was frozen. I could not feel anything, I could not sream or even cry. I tried to be composed and pretend that I'm okay, that he will change his mood and will talk to me. I never gave up and still tried to reach him finally.....we talked. I found out that his parents arranged him to marry one of their close families, that he could not do anything. It will be a matter of his life of loosing me or loosing his family. But then in the end he chose his family over me. I thought that I could accept the fact that he's out of my life now, though we still keeping in touch but to my regret that he's not in my life anymore. It's so painful, I wish that he just left me because of third party, I wish that he just left me because he doesn't love me anymore. Obviously i knew the reason why. what is hard to move on is that I knew very well how much he felt about me, that how much he could not do anything to stop his family. I've tried to date a lot of guys just to cover up how hard I am feeling till now, It has been 6 months ago but still the wound in my heart is still fresh and always refereshing day by day. I joined this site with a hope of seeking some inspiratonal messages from the bloggers and readers whom can relate my story. Just a friend to talk to or an ear to listen on me.

thanks for reading my story,

Dainty