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it means alot to hear you say that

fragglesrock posted on Dec 12, 2008 | views: 199 | Tags: rat bastard, closure
i can exhale? it's all over? i can move on now?
 
rat bastard e-mailed me today and said...
 
"I hope you can someday forgive me
 
I'm sorry I hurt you so badly."

i feel like crying tears of joy, relief, all i ever wanted was for him to apologize.  it wasn't flowery or extravagant it was a simple apology and a plea for forgiveness. 

i'm not going to go into too many details but in one of our very last conversations while we were together i was basically apologizing for being me in an attempt to stop him from leaving (bitter laugh)

at the time he responded to my outpouring with..."it means alot to hear you say that"...as he was walking away.

in my journal shortly after...i was devastated and i remember writing how someday i wish i would have the opportunity to say those words to him "it means alot to hear you say that"...

and here we are full circle.

so now...

I HAVE CLOSURE!!!!

i can exhale, it's all over, i can move on

***fraggles walking away as she says "it means alot to hear you say that"****

 




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  • PAPERBACKWRITER said on Dec 12, 2008....

    simple words, are the hardest ones  to say...

    i am glad you have your closure, fraggles.

    paper ~
  • fragglesrock said on Dec 12, 2008....
    paper...thank you.
  • uniquely-ironic said on Dec 12, 2008....
    good that you got that closure.  I think now you can truly move on, and not feel like you left something undone.
  • Lucytorial said on Dec 12, 2008....
    Sometimes simple acknowledgements are worth a million dollars or more.  I'm glad that you received that, however it came about hon, you can turn the page and not worry about looking back again.
     
  • starchini said on Dec 12, 2008....

    This reminds me of a song..."I shoulda changed that stupid lock i should thrown away the key if i thought for just a second hed be back to bother me.  Go on now go, walk out the door, i dont need that something face coming round here any more...something something...hey heyyy heeey!  I will survive"

    errr....."hit the road jack, and dontchya come back no more no more no more no more"

    hehe. 

  • cuppajava said on Dec 12, 2008....
    Hi-I am glad that you are finally able to close that chapter in your life and be able to move on,and go forward.I have gathered that it has been a bit of a torment since you split - but now you can at least focus on what YOU want to do and where YOU want to be and with who.Its time for you to start over fresh,and make new plans.It is gonna be a new year soon.I think the first resolution you should make is to forget this guy ever existed in your life,as hard as that may be to do.
    By the way.......what will become of the voodoo doll now? 
  • woman said on Dec 12, 2008....
    Closure brings peace of mind and sometimes a return of self respect. I'm glad you got what you needed. Now dance down the road dear. Don't look back.
  • fragglesrock said on Dec 12, 2008....

    uni - the trash bag is tied up tight and i can throw it out now :)

    lucy - i can't beleive the weight that has been lifted off of me. it's remarkable. this is the first day of my life (it's a song) :)

    star - i don't know the first one but i like the words...the second one...classic "i'm over you" song :)

    cj - you are going to laugh at me...i was reading your comment and i found myself nodding at the things you said...i felt like i wanted to get on top of my soap box and shout it out to the world as i shake my fist and gather my minnions...friend, your comment was very empowering.  yeah, i'm now looking forward to the new year :)

    woman - i promise you, i'm strapping on my dancing shoes right now...there is a pool table calling my name just begging to be danced on top of tonight ;)

     

  • Lucytorial said on Dec 12, 2008....
    TA RAH RAH BOOMDEAY TA RAH RAH BOOMDEAY... march forward young women! its fun to do it with a stupid grin on your face, a funny step and wiggling jiggling bits too!
  • fragglesrock said on Dec 12, 2008....

    can i have a crown lu?

  • Lucytorial said on Dec 12, 2008....
    Yes ohh and I'll have to make sure that a sceptre is available too hit the tooth pics with as we walk down the street...
     
    Tooth picks = skinny assed fucking girls with nothing better to do that pick the shit out of the gums of elephants.
  • lionesss said on Dec 12, 2008....
    oh im so proud of you,its obvious now that he has got the message that you have moved on and to get closure is even better,,now its time for you to start living and avin fun again as your way too pretty to stay in doors,, you go fraggs.......xx
  • Hegemone said on Dec 12, 2008....
    Frag, I'm SO happy for you.  How exciting and liberating.  This is just what you needed.  You definitely deserved it.  I really do hope you do or will go out and celebrate on this one with your new found lightened shoulders.  It really is the first day of this new life for you ... I couldn't be more happy and excited for you.  (((Hug)))
  • kitty_kat said on Dec 13, 2008....
    Closure is a very hard thing to acheive with any period of mourning; i'm so pleased you have found your inner peace fraggle, now with moving on, you'll find your freedom again. Huggsss
    kk x
     
  • hotaka said on Dec 13, 2008....
    Closure is a very important thing to have. I understand that even though he may be a rat bastard he still meant a lot to you before and his love meant a lot to you. As long as such a thing is still important in the present you can never have closure. I am very glad to read that the thing you were waiting for has happened. Now you are free to move on, eh? Good luck to you, dear fraggles.
  • destinydiva said on Dec 13, 2008....
    really really really hapy for you!!!!!! :-) xx
  • Psych-ed said on Dec 13, 2008....
    I'm glad that you got closure and can move on. Yay Fraggles :-)!
  • winterslight said on Dec 16, 2008....
    grats i am so glad he did that! you are very lucky most people never get that. and then 5 years later they sit there and wonder what if..  i am glad you can close that part of your book. and now grab a blank one and start all new! and see were this one leads you!

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