i am addicted.
It's funny, because i have a highly addictive personality, i smoke, i spend way too much time on the Internet in a non-work related capacity, i used to run for miles until my hips gave up and said "no way! what the fuck do you think you're doing!", i become addicted easily to people until most piss me off so much that they just become annoying (shallow i know) but when something greatly fascinates me or there is something i want so badly, i just can't seem to let it go. i've not figured out yet whether this is a fundamental flaw in my personality or whether i just know what i want and therefore go out to get it. Not in a materialistic way, but in the search for inspiration, desire and the feeling of inner satisfaction.
Anyway, none of this is the point so i have no idea where that paragraph came from. The point is, the one thing i am not addicted to is watching the TV. Mostly, i can't stand it and on the occassions where the children are tucked up in bed and my husband is out of the house with work, the TV is turned off and my is iPod plugged in.
There is one thing on the TV however that i am addicted to. Heroes. Series one and two were utterly fantastic and last night i had such an opportunity to watch the recordings of the last 2 episodes which takes me to half-way through series 3. i know you have reached the end of this in the US, so please please don't tell me what happens! It is the one programme that i can truly sit and watch for hours.
In second of last night's episodes, the Heroes lost their abilities due to the eclipse of the sun. They were rendered immobile and had to rely on their standard human intuition to help them through various personal situations.
It set my mind to thinking, which of these powers, if removed would have the most impact on the individual Hero?..... the ability to fly? the ability to not be harmed or feel pain in anyway? the ability to read thoughts or feed anothers mind with thoughts of your own? the ability to predict and draw out the future? or the ability to take power from another being in order to feed your own strength...
After analysing the abilities held by this fictional group (yes, i know sadly that it is fiction), i wondered if i would truly like to have an ability of my own, or whether holding such a power would ultimately bring more anxiety than it was worth.
i have come to the conclusion that if i had the choice of any of them, it would be the ability to fly, to travel the globe in a matter of minutes and feel the freedom of nothing but wide open space. i could also then visit a few friends in the US without the hassle or huge expense of an air ticket. Although.. saying that, i am a little afraid of heights, so maybe not.
If you had the choice of any ability at all, what would yours be?
Be well
kk
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