Well, some turd said "Fuck you!" to me a little while ago when I was outside smoking a cigarette. I think that it was the same guy that tried to run me over months back. That's alright. When I complain about him, it will be on record. I'm going to the park manager tommorrow. This ridicule has got to stop. My mother thinks that I am just paranoid about all of this shit. I don't know why all of these people are out to get me other than the fact that I have been a target of persecution throughout most of my life. They all seem to want to jump on that one particular bandwagon. I can't worry about it. Obviously that guy isn't the one who loves me. I don't believe in romantic love anymore anyway. If I had a reason to, I would. Oh well, I can't worry about it. He wishes he could fuck me. LOL. I'm not doing anything but trying to live at present. I have to stop letting these asses that fuck with me drag me down. Apparently it is a huge conspiracy to push me over the edge, so that I'll kill myself or run away in some other way. I know that some people want me gone. I guess they are mad because I am not bowing down to Gabby's dirty ass. They seem to be sticking up for her despite the fact that she is an asshole who treated me like shit. Oh wait, because she did it, they want to do it too. They are pushing the wrong one. If they don't change my medication again, someone may get hurt if this continues. I know that's not a lie. I know me when I lose it. I'm trying not to do so though, even though all I want to do is to kill. I know that I can't do that and keep what little freedom I do have. It is very hard not to allow these people to destroy my life because they are selfishly trying to get ahead by stepping on others again. If there is a God, I hope that he punishes them.
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pusscat said on Dec 07, 2008....
It's not nice to be bullied or harassed is it? I' have been there too. I hope that if there is a God they get what they deserve too. You know - the fact that you acknowledge how angry they could make you and what could happen is good. You are aware and so try your darnedest to keep it all in check. That makes you SO much bigger and better than them. It often happens that if one person is getting at you the stupid 'sheep' end up following.
Tell you what, next time some asshole says "fuck you" you wanna come straigh back with, "nah - I usually let real men do that for me honey" LOL! Bullies only get kicks when they think they are bothering you. Even if you just laugh at whatever they do or say it will piss them off. It is boring to harass someone who doesn't react. If they get bored hopefully they'll quit.
i think you're doing a greate job of staying above it hellbound. Keep it up hun.
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hellboundmercinary said on Dec 07, 2008....
Thank you Pusscat. I'm doing my best. -
satanx said on Dec 07, 2008....
I don't want or expect to fuck you or for you to fuck me. I just want to love you from affar. I am on your side wether it be cyber or not This will never change. Love me, hate me, I don't care. I love you. I may never hear from you again, and you don't know me, but I feel the way I do. I DO HAVE FEELINGS! Is this not odd!? -
lionesss said on Dec 07, 2008....
hello hun, the sweetest form of revenge is sucess, i think i told you before?, but like pc said wen you ignore bullies they get tired and move on to the next poor victim, all bullies are cowards and can not face real life or people as they cant handle confrontation in a civilised way, just carry on in your daily living ignorin their stupid childish ways, keep a log of every thing they have done or said , like pc said youre doing very well in handling this and reconizing wen it gets too much, but so far your doin great, tell em'' that their life is so borin they have to watch your every move, thats so sad looser''but you hang on to your freedom they are not worth it dnt fall into their trap and stoop to their level, stay strong my friend....x -
hellboundmercinary said on Dec 08, 2008....
Satanx how could you love me if you don't know me? Well, ok, I have blogged my personal feelings, fears, and other issues, so you know alot about me. Do you even know what I look like? I'm like 218 lbs with a crappy growing out phase hairstyle. I'm not stripper material anymore. I know that you have feelings. I have them too. I am glad that you are on my side. Thank you. I know that the hairstyle is temporary and that the weight could be too. Still, I don't know what to say. Usually when a man says he loves me, he's only using and/or controlling me or wanting to do so. Strange, isn't it? -
hellboundmercinary said on Dec 08, 2008....
Thanks again Lionesss for your wonderful and positive input. All of you are great. -
BADDA_BING said on Dec 29, 2008....
If someone fucks with you they might get wacked out!
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