i try to get friends, and end up getting drugs.

well i asked my buddy from work to smoke with me, ended up just buying a dime off her. i hope she doesnt think im crushing on her or something, thatd be awkward. but im just the weirdo trying to make friends. all i really want right now is someone to sit around with and chat or some shit. i should just take my dads advice not to go out of my way to make friends. well im not really, but still. i should just care less. i know if i move in with her we'll have shit to talk about and someone will be there to chill and smoke with. just right now kinda sucks not really having anyone.

i dont know what to do right now. suppose i might as well smoke. i dont feel like watching the show i bought very much, i feel like talking. i got half my xmas shopping done last night at wal-mart (as much as i hate the thought of supporting that stupid store with my money) and wrapped everything earlier after work today. i organized my paychecks and shit, bought a new book and sorted it out. now what?

smoke? guitar? music? the show?

i guess.

i wish i had some friends or something.