:( I am so lonely :( .. I really jus want to have someone here but the one person I am allowed to have her to make me happy cant be. It's wrong to think of someone else when you already have someone. Its even one of the commandments "thou shalt not commit adultery", well im not religious but moses or whoever said that didnt have a logn distance relationship now did he? No, he didnt i dont think prophets are even allowed to have relationships so how the heck can he come down and tell you not to commit adultery ? Anyway i dont know I do not even believe in all of it really anyway and I have not yet committed adultery but i feel as guitly as if I had,, just for thinking about it. Then again i guess its human to feeel lonely when the person you spend every day of your life with screws off cause he is in the army and the country needs him more..

well I might be a little selfish and i am sure people woudl judge me on this .. but i dont think the country needs him more i think i do. The army doesnt even know his name .. he is a number so fuck that system. What really gets me is he works so hard sacrifices everything puts me through hell being away and the awesome army, keep screwing his life over. I mean come on if your going to tell someone where they have to live at least give time for them to come home and see their significant other but apparently I a shit cause we are not married. Well you know what i think there is alot of army girlriends who get married cause its easier to see their "husbands" not cause theyre ready to . Why do you think the divorce rate is so high ? ... i wonder:P .. but anyway there are alot of other things on my mind to. Like finals. They suck , studying sucks and long distance relationships SUCK. :( aww my guess i get to feeel lonely until something changes , after all im not the adulterer type. I have to much conscience i guess..