its the end of the month already.  been a long week. wish i was not so tired all the time. i come home from work and all i want to do is sleep. but i am still working. my boss quit his job on monday . he is going to move back to the east coast. i dont feel as nervous around him as i used too. thats a good thing i guess in the long run. boss will be there until the end of jan. who knows what after that.

my youngest called me on thurs night. he had gone to ottawa with his gf. he proposed to her there. he called to tell me he was engaged. i was so shocked. i never saw it coming thats for sure. now i have to figure out what to get them for xmas. ........sigh. am thinking of making them an afgan. they keep saying they dont need anything. guess we shall see on that.......

i saw my friend yesterday . it was nice to see him again. by the direction of the conversation and one other thing i found out yesterday he is not interested in anything more than just friendship and probly never was. maybe just wishful thinking on his part for a short time too. he reveled something to me yesterday maybe to scare me off or to see if i would stay i dont know. he has a colostomy bag. his colon was removed 10 yrs ago to prevent cancer and to get rid of the pain of disease he had.  anyhow will leave it as is and see if he makes a move. i never asked him if he wanted me but maybe it was just as well. maybe he would be embarrased and have to turn me down because of his medical bag and not because he didnt want me. still would like to know if he is attracted to me tho..........its so hard to tell.....

started xmas shopping this week. started the xmas cakes last night too will be baking them later today.