sat 29 nov 08
Agent/social worker Richard came to see me wednesday and again yesterday. Of course on wednesday he didn't bother to tell me I was going to be left outside for thanksgiving. and of course he doesn't think i know he's an agent. they are all so fucking arrogant. each new one thinks they will be the one to escape undetected. This is the arrogance that decided I was a worthless piece of shit to be strung up as bait without my consent and then thrown away after months of abuse. ANYWAY, I THINK RICHARD MIGHT BE SOMEONE WHO COULD GET AN INTERNAL FBI INVESTIGATION GOING. I THINK AN INTERNAL INVESTIGATION IS WORTH ABOUT TEN POUNDS OF SHIT, BUT I WANT IT ANYWAY. I WANT AN INVESTIGATION, AGENT RICHARD OF THE SECRET CODE HAT.
THEY ARE COOKING ME WITH RADIATION, A FORMERLY FREE AMERICAN CITIZEN WHO WAS THE VICTIM OF MAFIA CONTRACT. MAYBE THEY WERE GIVING ME RADIATION ALWAYS, BUT THEY REALLY RATCHETED IT UP ON 1 SEPT. I HAD TAKEN THE BATTERIES OUT OF MY CELL PHONES TWO DAYS EARLIER, AND THAT HAD ELIMINATED ONE OF THEIR SIGNALS. IT WAS ANOTHER ONE OF THE WAYS I TOLD THEM I WANTED TO STOP BEING BAIT AND HAVE A HOME. BUT ALL I GOT FOR IT WAS PUNISHED, AS USUAL. ANYWAY, THEY MUST HAVE GIVEN ME A REALLY BIG DOSE IN FOOD OR IN MY SLEEPING BAG AROUND NOV 10, BECAUSE ON THAT DAY I BOUGHT SOME NEW FUZZY SOCKS AND WAS WEARING SNEAKERS AND SAT IN A WARM BUILDING MUCH OF THE DAY. AROUND LUNCHTIME MY FEET BEGAN TO BURN AS IF FLAMES WERE EATING THEM. I GRITTED MY TEETH AND WENT ON WITH MY DAY, AND IT WAS HOURS BEFORE I COULD LOOK AT MY FEET. THE TOPS OF MY TOES WERE COVERED WITH BROKEN BURN BLISTERS. NOT FRICTION BLISTERS. RADIATION BURNING.
THEY PUT RADIATION IN MY HOBO BED AGAIN YESTERDAY. AGENT ELLA CAME AGAIN WHILE I WAS TALKING TO RICHARD. THEY DID IT THIS WAY ON PURPOSE SO SHE COULD PUT THE PLATE ON MY BED WHILE I WAS TALKING TO RICHARD. AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT SHE DID. SHE SAID, "HERE, LET IT WARM YOUR LAP," AND TRIED TO PUT IT INTO MY LAP, BUT I PUSHED IT AWAY. THEN SHE PUT IT ON THE BED. ANOTHER AGENT CAME ALONG TOO. THEY FIGURED THAT WITH THREE OF THEM THERE TO DISTRACT ME, THEY'D LEAVE THE RADIATION, CONDUCTED BY THE HEAT, OOZING INTO MY BEDDING. AND IT WORKED, BECAUSE I WAS SO DISTRACTED BY TRYING TO TALK TO THREE FUCKING ABUSERS AT ONCE THAT IT TOOK ME ABOUT FIVE MINUTES TO REMEMBER TO GET THE FUCKING PLATE OFF THE BED.
I GUESS FIVE MINUTES WAS ENOUGH, BECAUSE MY FEET BURNED IN MY SLEEPING BAG ALL NIGHT. NO BLISTERS THIS TIME, BUT IT'S STILL TOO MUCH RADIATION IF IM GETTING THAT FEELING OF FLAMES EATING MY FEET ALL NIGHT LONG. WHAT CANCERS AM I NOW GROWING BECAUSE OF THEIR RADIOACTIVE CRAP?
SLEEP DEPRIVATION... for the innocent victim of a mafia contract
RADIATION... for the innocent victim of a mafia contract
GERM WARFARE... for the innocent victim
ALL MY PHONES TAPPED, ALL MY ROOMS BUGGED AND
SEARCHED, ALL WITHOUT WARRANTS. EVERYONE I LOVED
TAKEN FROM ME AND HIDDEN OR KILLED, AND I AM FORCED
NOT ONLY TO BE BAIT AND TO HAVE NO PRIVACY, BUT FOR
NEARLY NINE MONTHS TO LIVE WITHOUT LOVE. THAT IS THE
GREATEST ABUSE OF ALL THEIR ABUSES, THE GREATEST
TORTURE OF ALL THEIR TORTURES, TO LIVE WITHOUT LOVE.
