Life is filled with unexpected things. I've been really into T, so into him in fact, that I am thinking of telling P & R to screw off. Could I be in love? I don't know, but this is definitely different, meaning I actually have feelings for him.

So this weekend I tried to break up with R like I had set out to do. He wouldn't have it. He wanted a second chance and said he'd do anything to be with me. The groveling was pathetic, and it filled me with disgust. In fact, I was so disgusted I told R that I needed money and I felt that he wasn't able to provide the lifestyle I wanted. Crazily enough, he said he'd help support me through school as long as I stayed true to him. How could I argue with this begging? It was unbelievable, so I told him that I'd be very grateful if he'd pay for my car payments and he agreed. The truth is, I don't believe that he'll stick with it for long, but as long as he's willing, I'll be taking. Because of this new arrangement, I kind of softened up and ended up meeting R on Sunday for a nooner, after I had left T's place. Then, later that night, I met P for a quick BJ in his car as he was "in the neighborhood." I know this isn't what I should be doing right now, as this bedhopping could get tricky, but P gave handed me a $100 bill for my time as he dropped me off at my place (which is actually M's place). I basically didn't go through with anything I had planned to do, except the weekend sex fest with T which was marvelous.