I know ...it's been like almost forever! but here I am. I am at my daughter Shells for "Thanksgiving" so my pc is working for now. It has been a most amazing time for me. I have friends I didn't even know..... Donations, of many kinds and the magic I felt at that hospital from prayer was amazing. I feel like I have been i some kind of dream world...Cancer..I never would believe it..naw not me..... melanoma of the great toe they said...after cutting my toe off while awake and still partially not numb...I felt that first cut yet he wouldn't knock me out..said "NO"`we can't... the fear of my blood pressure dropping was greater than the pain of cutting off a toe that HAD to come off. I put myself in his place and understood later and told him so . I also added should something like that happen again, I would sign a paper anything but I will be put to sleep. He smiled and said ok, then I gave him a hug. This was 2 days after the surgery and the pathology report came back Yes it was Melanoma of the great toe stage 2c (?) another problem... I had 7 large lymph nodes in my groin and 2 looked very deformed and not good.....next a ultrasound guided needle biopsy in my groin..... of course awake.... they came back neg. but that didn't mean anything I needed a PET Scan...... usually about $5,000 I have no ins. well my daughter didn't let that stop her she got together with her friends from an anonymous place and set up a medical fund for me...then happen to meet a friend who owns imaging centers just needed a $1,000 and an order from a Dr. My Dr ordered She raised that in time for my appt. My daughter In North Carolina Came and took me to Houston (Hadn't seen her in 10 yrs) then back home) Its all a haze like a dream... I am suddenly very week...been better today but dr Said I have been thru a lot my back has a disc gone and many bulging disc with pinched nerves and nerve damage....all in all my mind is still thinking about how I have to get to my friends and tell them Im ok dont worry.
Lennie Thank you so much for the call! I felt so connected again. So thank you for the prayers and Donations.. I dont know who does what My Daughter is my trustee and signs for where the money goes alot has been on Medications, Dr visits ect I will have to take and still working on seeing the oncologist Thank you again so much for alll you do....Especially the prayers! Bless You All! .....Waking Harmony
wakingharmony posted on Nov 27, 2008
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Twylarants said on Nov 27, 2008....
Dear Margaret, I just read your other post where you told us you are cancer free...what wonderful news to read on Thanksgiving Day. Take care and before you know it you'll regain your strength and be back here chatting and visiting with all your friends who've missed you! -
mobil said on Nov 27, 2008....
Great news WH, all my best to you. -
wombat said on Nov 27, 2008....
I'm sorry I couldn't do more, but I did and do think of you, said a prayer, and it's good to see you here. You sound like you are surrounded in a great support group. {{{{{{{hug and good thoughts}}}}}}} -
wakingharmony said on Nov 27, 2008....
Twyla~ How wonderful to see you! I really didn't expect many comments...Sadly Lennie said Sc just doesn't seem to be the same.I am so glad to see you ! And you are so right..I will just get stronger...I do need to let "God" do it in his own time not mine :-)
Mobil~ Thank you hon you are such a sweetheart!
Womby~ You have nothing to be sorry for...Prayer has put me on the good side of this and I thank you for yours! It works better than some people know! So Thank you for yours!
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugz And Prayers right back at you all}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Much love to you ALL!
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Lucytorial said on Nov 27, 2008....
Thank god you go tback here to say hello!!!!Honey I've been asking Lenny to ask you a question for about two weeks now but he hasn't replied.. am PM'ing you so you better reply!!! -
queenparanoia said on Nov 28, 2008....
:-)
your daughter is really something and lenny too... ;-)
i'm so glad youre okay now... ;-)
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destinydiva said on Nov 28, 2008....
waking Its so good to see you posting again!!! you've been in my thoughts
((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))) xxxxx
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evil_twin said on Nov 28, 2008....
It's good to see you again :-) And I'm glad that you're doing better and that you beat this thing. I've been thinking about you and hoping you're alright. So it's great to hear this news :-)
-evil_twin LA
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wakingharmony said on Nov 28, 2008....
Lucy~ Lennie did get to me but I just got the message :-) last night my son-in-law fixed my pc. I read your PM And pm'ed you back. trying to get all the "correct" info as `I type~Rather Michelle is ;-) Thank-you sooooo much hon...just one question..."Do those wings hurt your back or are the not heavy?" ;-)
Queen~ Yes I am very "Blessed" To have the children I do And Michelle is proof big time of that! Friends.....Lennie is a Wonderful example of that! He is Always there ...And you "ALL" too....Gosh I'm gonna cry again just thinkin of you all!
Des~ Lennie told me you have been asking about me.& you have been in my thoughts too how are you doing? Love Ya Dessie!
ET~My SC Son! It is so good to see you too! Lennie has been keeping me up to date with you too! Whats this with the Ghosts!? Hehe Your Stories are greatly missed! Thank you for the well Thoughts...you have know idea how much I appreciate them! Love ya Baby Boy! Give Nat A Big Hug For ME :-)
(((((((((((((((((((((More BIG Hugs!)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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evil_twin said on Nov 28, 2008....
Yeah, we've got some ghosts in our house! But there's other big news Lennie didn't tell you. Nat and I are having a baby :-) And it's due on my birthday! I will be sure and give Nat a hug from you too.
-evil_twin LA
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wakingharmony said on Nov 28, 2008....
YEAH!!!!!!!!! A New Grand baby!!!!! Oh I just love babies! Oh you will be such wonderful parents! And I cant wait to see the cutie! How far along is she?? -
gingersoul said on Nov 28, 2008....
Dear Margaret....i am so happy to read you are cancer free. I have been thinking of you since Lenny wrote the post and let us know you were so sick....
You are such a sweet lady...i am really happy to know you are well now. It must have been simply devastating and frightful for you and your loved ones ...
Yes, you do have friends and a family support ...nothing can beat that..
So glad you are back!
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wakingharmony said on Nov 28, 2008....
Yes it is rather draining... I thought ok Im going to be hopping great but the Dr. said I need to understand that My body has been through a lot and My back Is still a mess but at least we know what we are dealing with and with the cancer removed and the miracle of GOD and all your prayers.... I just have to deal with the large lymph node and I am so Greatful that there no Cancer there...even the Drs. are amazed and shocked that it wasn't there...well my personal Dr. understands the miracals of prayers..but even he was sad when he stressed to me the odds and he saw the scans. {{{{{{{{{{{Ginger}}}}}}} I was thinking of you to when I was in there.... I even thought to myself if I told her which hosp I was in in SA You would probably show up! But I was so embarrassed as to how I looked... I know silly me but I think you understand what I mean ;-) Love ya -
diabolicdame said on Nov 28, 2008....
Hey waking! Its good to see you happy, healthy and posting!! You sound so positive despite everything.. reading this post even cheered me up!! -
wakingharmony said on Nov 28, 2008....
Hi Diabolic Great to see you too! Thanks for the cheer up! I have just got back to Shells After going to a meeting with her and this sudden sadness over took me and i started crying 3 times silently....but finally made it thru the meeting and outside. It was so silly and totally unlike me. Lately I have notices friends with their toenails brightly painted pretty and dainty little toe rings... tonight I was sitting next to a very sweet friend of my daughters and now mine. this meeting is very laid back and she had her pretty toes sitting across her leg and was just messing with her toe ring as she talked (this is a support meeting and I go with my daughter because I have come very close to these people even more so lately, with all they have done to help me with the medical fund and all !) Suddenly it hit me! I will never paint my toenails pretty again or wear sandals much less a toe ring... I know silly ....I would not give up my life toe have my toe back that was taking over my life with cancer like a weed out of control. I always said its just a toe not my life... but I guess some vanity slipped in. when My daughter came out she asked are you crying? I sad "NO......as new tears slipped down my cheeks. Come on Mom Tell me what is wrong ...I told her and asked her not to say anything to the friend! I didn't want her to feel bad because I was being silly ...she said Mom you want to hear something strange....I was thinking the same thing about my toe (she had to have her toenail removed right after I had my pet scan) It was infected and the dr removed the nail the same day...luckily hers is healed and that was all she had to have removed and it was her 2nd toe....but her nail will probably never grow back, and she was remembering toenail painting as well. she can wear sandals though cause you really don't notice its not there......but how strange we were thinking the same thing. We are better now...rather I am ok she just had the thought I had the tears. God I Love her! -
Lucytorial said on Nov 28, 2008....
Wishy ~ you know what, you lost a bit of tie, your tie granted but it was a bit of toe..... what you didn't lose is your life. So I was thinking the other day how cool it would be to have a prosthetic toe?? sure sure laugh now but imagine how easy it is to paint your toe nail when its in your hand! -
wakingharmony said on Nov 28, 2008....
Lucy you are such a nut Thomas said that right after I had it cut off (not the holing and painting) and my reply was just as you said...Its just a toe ! Not my life.....but some silly thing just came over me.Thanks for making me laugh Lucy! You are a lift in this world! -
diabolicdame said on Nov 29, 2008....
Ohh waking!! Its a silly little toe.. I never even notice people's toes!! You are beautiful with or without your toe!! Don't ya let that little sucker get you down ok! You should buy some fabulous new closed front shoes and flaunt it to the world.. theres a saying, " Give a girl the right shoes and she can conquer the world".. oh and keep up that smile!! :-) -
wakingharmony said on Nov 29, 2008....
Thanks Diabolic, It was just a fleeting moment that came over me...No Biggie (no pun intended hehe) Hugs to ya! -
miss*shell said on Nov 30, 2008....
FYI......mom......usally people wear toe rings on ther second toe......and anyone who really knows you knows that YOUR true beuaty is not in you toe it is in your SPIRIT and you are one of the most beautiful people i know i love you bunches!!!!
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