Guess I'm in that place that a song like this can affect me so much, so I wanted to put it here for me.
The song came on the radio, so I "YouTube'd" it, and the video had some scenes that made me long for home so bad that I wanted to cry.
(The lake scenes make me miss where I used to go and just look at the water, watch a barge slip by under the bridge, and take a little breather from stress.)
I don't have anywhere I can go like that nowdays, but I am always in that "mode." I have to find my place of peace in other ways now---by looking at pictures, listening to songs and remembering, or just by going to sleep cuddled up with my dreams.
And people I meet keep listening to me being myself, but they aren't really listening. What I get most of the time is an interuption of, "Where are you from?" (my accent overides my ache)
I say, Tennesee and Kentucky, well, both actually......
And then they ask how to pronouce my name, as it's on my lower shoulder, but not clear by any means....(never mind about that)
And all the while, I just want to be here....not just for a few minutes, or in my dreams, but now and for always.
I want to go "home."
But I can't.
But in my mind, I am just.......
