so i took summer classes this past summer, and it was nice, i met one of my bestfriends now, because we had a meeting about living on campus an we were both only taking one class each session, so we got to hang out alot! anyways- the class i took i ended up loving and therefore i have now changed my major to major in it, i really enjoy it so far, and i will be helping people- which is something that i find really rewarding.
well there was a guy, very attractive 6'4 redhead, with a quarter sleeve tattoo in my class over the summer.. not that i noticed ::wink::: well, we talked a few times but nothing really other than that. as the end of the class drew near, we talked more. and i even found myself wondering about him. on the last day of class i was sure he would ask me for my number, but he didn't we chatted, and flirted and that was it. he was gone. i was sad a little, i have to admit that because i was so attracted to him probally.
well as the fall semester started i tried to have a date or two, and they all fell short of even good, but i was happy for trying, because i have always said that i was not good at dating, so i was happy with it but still lonely. finding myself yearing for what i use to have with my ex, and how i didnt want him anymore, i just wanted what we had, that closeness, that bestfriend and person to learn on and be with... so fall semester started and i was walking to class one day, when i ran into him. i called out his name and the biggest smile came across his face. it was so warm and nice to see him. we stood there talking for about 10minutes, making him late for a conference call :oopsie: and he asked me to go get something to eat sometime, i was so excited! i agreeded, and gave him my number. we had planned on that following monday. and i never heard from him, i was a little upset that this guy i had a little crush on the entire summer had stood me up.
weeks go by, and no word from him. but i hadn't given up hope. i loged into my myspace account and search for him, just because i was curious, and there he was. so i figured why not be his friend, so i added him, and within 24 hrs he sent me a message! he appoligized for cancelling our date, and he said he hoped i got his text message. i replied and said i never had, he replied again with "i am so sorry! i typed your number in wrong, i feel like such a tool", i couldnt help but smile. he was that nice guy that i thought he was.
we sent messages to each other for a few weeks, and i would sometimes just look at his myspace. and that's when i saw it, we have a big gap in our ages. he is 12 years older than me. at first i was a little shocked, because he doesn't even look close to that much older.
well to make this novel shorter, he is in a band an asked me to come to a show this past week, so.... i went to a show on tuesday night, they are amazing, hes a great drummer! and then we had a real 1st date thursday night, i went to another show on friday night, we went to a concert on saturday night, and we spent the entire night together, and same thing sunday night! he knew i was doing papers on sunday, and something went wrong with our water on campus an it just tasted aweful an looked it, so he surprised me when he showed up to work while i worked on my paper, an he brought me a jug of water, a cold water bottle, and my favorite a tall white hot cocoa!
it was really the sweetest thing ever!
no- we are not being sexual, the only thing we have done is kiss, and when i mean kiss thats what i mean, we haven't made out. its like those sweet, passionate, little kisses, its amazing. wow..
well now, i am home for the holiday and he flew out to be with friends for the week for thanksgiving as well. ever since hes left this morning theres been nermerous text messages, 4-5 phone calls since hes been waiting at the airport and he calls between my classes, to wish me a great day!
the only problem that i probally shouldnt call a problem because me and him have talked about it, and thats our age difference. we have talked about it, and it worries both of us, but we still have so much in common, we don't run out of things to talk about, we just enjoy each others company an have a great time- he can even work on his work stuff and i can do my homework and it all worked out great. i would take a break an just watch some tv or lay down for a few minutes, and he'd notice and right before id be about to go back to my work id feel him giving me a foot rub or a back massage.
even when i couldnt sleep the other night because he moved or something, i woke up an just laid there, eyes open, and he felt so bad. he pulled me towards him, laying my head on his chest while he ran his fingers through my hair and he kept telling me to talk to him to get it off my chest that way, i could get back to sleep. i've never slept so well with someone else, and when i say sleep i mean literally sleep. i still feel self conscious sometimes but not as much as i usually am. were both just very laid back people. even after spending the past 6 days with him, i miss him already. an i know that it probally sounds crazy.
i got the lecture from my parents, "hes to old for you!" " he doesn't want a relationship he just wants sex! your 22 and he just wants to get with you, thats all" "your going to end up heartbroken, and dont you fall in love with him"
i hate that they say all of these things..because i dont see him like that. hes not some much older guy who just wants to get in my pants, hes the guy that brought me bottled water because the water on campus tasted bad, he's the guy that tells me how beautiful i am when i woke up this morning, and hes the guy that hugged me so tight and kissed me so softley this morning when he left for home to pack.
i don't know whats going to happen with me and him. or if there even is a me and him. i just know that i enjoy his company, and i love hanging out with him and being with him when we can. i miss him now, but i am going to see him sunday night. and im excited, and he told me he was too.
does anyone have any suggestions or comments? has this ever happened to you or someone you know?
