I have never been a superstitious person. Atleast not actively. But we live in a superstitious society and I find that it manages to seep into my life whether I like it or not!!
We all know the common superstitions.. black cats are considered inauspicious here.. one sneeze is also inauspicios.. two are lucky! Glass shattering is inauspicious.. and more than anything, people around here believe a lot in protecting themselves from the 'evil eye'.. or basically they don't trust people and think that everybody wants bad things to hapen to them and are sending them negetive energy and giving them the evil eye!! Now I'm a science student.. I never believed in all this. And I tried to talk people out of it.. but aarrrghhh, the truth is I'm scared of the evil eye too!!
As I'm going through some important things in my life, I'm falling deeper into the trap of the evil eye! Like when my bf was going for that interview he really wanted, I didn't tell too many people about it and the day before his interview..I actually FASTED from sunrise to sunset. No food at all. It was my way of praying I guess.. but before I actually did it, I would have laughed at the idea!! Not that its common or anything, I just thought it up! And it worked too.. he got the job! I think it had more to do with the fact that he gave a smashing interview than me starving myself.. but I guess we'll never really know!! hehe..
Now that some even more important stuff is happening.. I'm keeping it all a secret. Not telling anybody. Not even my best friends!! I wrote about it here but.. I'm not telling anyboy I know in real life! Except my bf and my sis and parents.. I guess I really only trust them. I just keep thinking that my other friends might get jealous and not really wish me well. Its all SO important. I'm thiking that if I ask people to wish me well or just pray for me.. they might just think negetive things and what if it affects my prospects!! So much for friendship.. I know.. I suck!
The truth is I think I'm losing it!!!!! What happens in my important events depends on me! On my hard work and all the efforts I've put in.. but then to be honest ever since I started wearing my lucky saphire life has been better!
See how comfusing this is? Especially for a science student! Damn it!! But you know what.. I must've done something right because that test I took? The international one that I need to apply to universities abroad? And the one that I almost missed because I forgot my passport, which I needed to get entry, in another city the night before?? Well, the results are out.. and I ACED it. I aced it so good that I can't even believe how good I aced it. I totally freakin ACED it!! Woohooo!!
So who knows.. maybe my feng shui is working for me afterall!!
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