as it turns out, it wasn't just about making myself feel OK (or wanted or needed or desirable, or whatever). it turns out a large part of what I needed was for (him) just to know how much (he) meant to me; regardless of any circumstances. that I was better for having known him, even if I didn't exactly.
that it wasn't just attraction of a sex-sort (though that was definitely there from my end). that he allowed me to see my own soul. a glimmer of it. and somehow learn to open myself outward a bit. to trust another human being. it's hard to explain how any of this happened or even makes sense. but what matters is that it did happen. that I love him for it and always will (all attraction aside) as a person.
as someone who challenged me, made me laugh, made me smile, made me realize that I was missing out on a sense of enthusiasm for things. that I wasn't willing to admit to liking much of anything. that I'd forgotten how to hope or dream or even make a friend, beyond just the casual acquaintances.
that sometimes a soulmate (a thing which I never believed in before I knew him) is just another soul and not a future lover. just another human who cares too for some simple and remarkable reason.
all I really need out of this is just for him to know that
that my heart is
unwound and happy for it. that he was there for me.
Misty_Eyed posted on Nov 22, 2008
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OscarB said on Nov 22, 2008....
Intimacy is a beautiful, wonderful thing... sex or no sex... to be able to connect with another human being on the level which you describe is awesome... I hope I get to experience it at some stage...I really enjoyed readying this post...thank you! -
OscarB said on Nov 22, 2008....
Intimacy is a beautiful, wonderful thing... sex or no sex... to be able to connect with another human being on the level which you describe is awesome... I hope I get to experience it at some stage...I really enjoyed readying this post...thank you! -
OscarB said on Nov 22, 2008....
Intimacy is a beautiful, wonderful thing... sex or no sex... to be able to connect with another human being on the level which you describe is awesome... I hope I get to experience it at some stage...I really enjoyed readying this post...thank you! -
OscarB said on Nov 22, 2008....
Sorry about that...had some gremlins -
moonunit said on Nov 24, 2008....
You are the dream of all dreams! -
Misty_Eyed said on Nov 25, 2008....
you're very sweet--both of you, and I'll try not to let it go to my head. (swelling as I type).
i'm going to try to make myself scarce for a little bit again since this Soulcast stuff becomes a bit of an addiction. so if you don't hear from me for a little while, I'm just off spending time with my real-life guy who deserves a bit more of my time and attention.
happy exploring <there's a whole world out there waiting for you to take it by storm.
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moonunit said on Nov 28, 2008....
You have become a part of the cyber world I live in now. I just want you to be happy, that's all. You sound so wonderful! Remember...if it never rains we will never enjoy the sunshine!
signed:Mr.Stuckonstupid(me)
{HUG}
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problem_child said on Nov 30, 2008....
This got pretty deep! (tingle) -
moonunit said on Dec 06, 2008....
If you ever want someone to cyber die for you please let it be me. -
Misty_Eyed said on Dec 09, 2008....
ix-nay on the dying stuff, buddy :) -
Misty_Eyed said on Apr 21, 2009....
For a long time, I was trying to understand what I meant about trusting someone (since I didn't necessarily trust [his] attention or his intentions all the time). I'm skittish that way, and then...well,...What I really trusted was his ability to understand what I was about in a way most other people probably couldn't. And to not really judge me for that. Just to accept that as the way I was. -
wolframpp7 said on May 08, 2009....
a black out for an upside down world (established beneath your chin in 1286)
velociraptors are running rampant (thanks a lot science)
they're going to try to catch you in the nude (where's your favorite towel?)
with their vintage holgas (so delightfully indie)
do they even understand exposure time? (probably not)
a broken leg laid me up all winter
someone left my sisters face out in the cold and it froze
had i been able to go get it back for her
and thaw it out
i would've
i hope you mean half as much to yourself as you do to me
cause you mean a lot to me
i'm going to boogie on out of here (scrambling my password...so dramatic)
sincerely,
a man who had to look up the correct spelling of the word "sincerely"
And as far as who was throwing up in the bathroom: it was
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